the other night before going to bed, i had an intrusive image of a little girl being abused. (i do have others in my head, esp. children, because of being sexually abused when i was really young). anyway, that night i dreamt of her and me as a little girl outside the window of the room we were probably raped in. the big me was on the bed and i reached through the glass to give these girls a doll. the girl in my image could not get her doll, it wouldn't go through the window. but th other me did. anyway, after these things happened, it occured to me that the image i saw this child being abused in was a little too close to this thing i do sexually now. this scared me of course. could it be possible this image happened to me? that i'm that girl? are there any other dissociatives out there who have had this experience? i feel so crazy, but i'm starting to really wonder if that was me. and if it was, how can i accept someone would hurt me as a little girl in that way? thanks for letting me ramble and i would appreciate any response. this really has me kinda freaked.