I hate the way I feel when I remember what my father did to me. The memories make me feel like I'm a child agian. I feel inadequate; like a fraud. When I receive awards at school (I'm a college student) or get praised at work, I am thinking "No, you don't know the truth about me. You don't know what I have done." I feel like I'm just putting on an act! I keep waiting for this feeling to end and for me to move on with my life, but I can't stop thinking about the memories. How can I get the memories out of my head? I am sick of thinking about them--I'm sick of remembering them! If this wasn't my fault why do I continue to be punished for it? Danette