i called her and got another appt for 8 in the morning (eeeeepp!!!!). jonah says he's not going to go see her though, b/c he's afraid of her now. sigh sigh sigh.
why today?
and then kerry stacks extra stuff for me to do tomorrow. and i'm just overwhelmed. i got mad. tried to explain to her how i felt. jesse came out, did some head banging (her forte) and they fought. kerry said when she got her money from SSI she was going to leave us.
bigger sigh.
jesse did tell her to go, though. so she said she was.
shit.
when it rains....
how can any day that is already apeshit get so much more messed up?
i could be alone here very soon.
now what?
and jess unsubbed us from the dp lists. so that's gone.
she's doing her thing. push everyone away and become a hermit. she does it every time she feels completely crazy. we also have an appt with the h to be evaluated for admission, but we aren't going. they would admit us and we'd miss eli's first day of school. that's not gonna happen.
and i don't know what to say in t.
i don't know what to do anymore.
god, i'm only 14.
alex