why cant i just forget things?
why does it have to hurt so much?
sometimes i just want to kick and scream
and people tell me to just get over it
its easy for them to say, but a person who goes
thru what we've been thru CAN'T just get over it
wish to god i could just hit the escape button
like on a computer and erase ALL the bad memories
all the bad nitemares, and flashbacks and body memories
but it doesnt work that way does it???
sometimes i just want the world to stop so i can get off of it
or open my head, take my brain out, set it on a shelf and let
it air out for a few days and get all the junk and gunk outta it...
i know i wound like a B I G F A T baby but i can't help the way i feel sometimes, and people always say TALKING about it helps, but sometimes it DOESNT help and people just DON'T understand that...
why can't things just settle down in my life from time to time and give me a break every now and then...guess i'll never get THAT lucky...ok i've rambled enough, sorry if i rambled toooooo much...
