I hate the flashes and memories and nitemares I hate that he did things to me that NO child should EVER have to endure, I feel so worthless and useless ATM and I just want to curl up in a big fat ball in the corner and cry I just want to give up and stay inside forever but NO I cant do that I'm EXPECTED
(as some people would tell me)
TO JUST GET OVER IT the abuse started when I was just 1 1/2 and went all the way through my childhood, it totally scarred me for life so to all those peeps who have NO idea what its like to endure THAT kind of horrid abuse, I tell THEM to get over themselves.....
Sorry for sounding so mean, but it irritates the crap outta me when people tell me to just get over it, dont they realize that if I COULD just GET OVER IT I woulda done that a long friggin' time ago? I mean come on get real...
My abuser didnt care how much he hurt me or what the lasting effects would be on my entire life, he used FEAR to keep me locked in HIS world...and...even though he has passed it seems like he is STILL reaching from the gr*ve to make my life a living H*LL!!!!!!
Ok I'll shut up for awhile, just had to try and get that offa my chest, thank you for letting me cry, bawl, kick, scream, whine and complain you're the BEST!!!
