I can not shake this.
I had a flashback and it was not just any flashback. It is a flashback with the feelings. I can feel him touching me feeling his finger slide into me. I can feel him kiss. me . I can not stand this. I can not live with things like this. I can feel the rope I can feel him tighten it around my hands and put the pillow over my head. Why will this not stop? Why do I have to feel it? His hands will not stop it hurts. I do not like it. I want daddy to stop. Why it hurts I hate it. No more touching no more kisses. No more feelings. I can not stand it. Why? I want this to end. I do nto want to be bad I will do anythign to be good. He likes the games and I hate it. I want to disappear. I want a real daddy not one that hurts me still. I can not stop this.
It won't stop the images the sensations keep coming. I am such a bad girl. I do not like it he wants me to like it. I hate it I want to cry. I can't let him see. It won't stop I see them everywhere. Me laying there on the bed his is doing it he is touching me he is hurting me. HELP. I want it to stop I do not want to see or feel it. I hurt :"( :"""(. STOP STOP NO NO . Why no one hear? Why no one come? It hurts it hurts
