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katie (knc)
Posted Dec 24, 2006 2:56 PM
I've been trying not to cry so much today but haven't done a very good job of it so far.....usually my mother sends me $$ for christmas but didn't get squat this year =( last year she game me a subscription to a game site called pogo, and SAID that she would renew it for me for xmas this year, she changed her mind so i didnt get anything from her this year...
I sent my daughter a $50.00 gift card from walmart like I do every year, and so far she hasnt even acknowledged that i even exsist. i am so hurt because my own family seems to not give a crap about me anymore. my daughter doesnt approve of me being a lezbian and says im going to h*ll for it, nor does she believe in people being multiple, she says im full fo d*mons and am going to h*ll. i haven't seen my mother in 8 years and i really miss her. i miss my daughter too, and she has 2 children that i will prolly never get to see EVER =( .....
I know that xmas isn't about the gifts, but it sure is nice when u DO have something to open on xmas day, i havent had that in nearly 21 years (since my daughter was 4) i spen alla my $$ on her while she was growing up. i raised her by myself and now that shes grown she hates me. i tried to be a good mom really i did, guess it wasnt good enough =( i broke my back making sure that my daughter had a roof over her head and clothes on her back and that she had a good education and everything she wanted for her xmases. now i feel like a cast out piece of garbage and it just plain ole hurts ;-(
katie-n-krew
(katie)
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