Round 2 sis!
Snipet!
..................I didn’t know it was the other way round. Guilty…yeah, that’s what I feel right now. Ahh…life is complicated sometimes. Forgive me Sendoh, I am not worthy of you affection, just find someone else who will cherish and love you back. You deserve better than me. How I wish I had the guts to confront him with that. ‘Forgive me’.
sigh Somehow I don’t think I’m capable of letting that statement out.
(Sendoh's POV) <------ Baka Bunny!! Here's the new one!
Trying to digest all those venomous lines coming out of Rukawa’s mouth was like committing suicide. If I were a mirror, surely it was shattered. I didn’t know all that time I was in someone else’s way, a barrier, a brick wall. I didn’t know that he too have hidden sentiment towards Hanamichi… but the question is, WHY did I have to be the one who should back off? Why did I give him clear path and not fight for it? I wanted to fight back and win Hanamichi for myself but then when I looked into Hana’s crystal eyes, something told me just to forget about him. I don’t stand a chance, not when his eyes were solely focused on the Shohoku’s Ace… the one he called ‘fox’. I was heart broken, yes… but yet I was also happy. Heart broken for the unrequited love. Happy that the one I love eventually found someone whom HE loves and loves him in return.
I just left after that. No point arguing when the truth had already revealed itself in front of my eyes. I did smile for… to him and he reciprocated. Hanamichi smiled like he always does but his smile was laced with hints of sadness and regret. His eyes dropped, they were no longer shining and I could sense that he meant to apologize but something held him back. How I wish I could just wade passes Rukawa and gathers Hanamichi into my arms for comfort. Instead, I just managed to stay still. Studied him for the last time, smiled reassuringly and walked away.
I didn’t even say ‘Good Bye’, my voice will certainly works against me if I were to say such thing.. I cried from the inside, only God knows how I internally bleed and how the pain really stabbed my heart. This is life, sometimes you win a little and vice versa. I personally think that I didn’t completely suffer defeat, far from losing actually. Those few weeks had been the most precious time of my lives and I’ll cherish it for as long as I shall breath. Everyone deserves ‘someone’, mine is yet to come and I guess Hana-kun and I weren’t meant to be. He’s my first crush, surely I wouldn’t forget.
‘I’ll always love you Itoshii!’
(Hanamichi’s POV)
I moaned out loud, squirming slightly from underneath him. I called out his name a couple of times begging him to continue his assault towards my now frail body. I am completely at his mercy. Never felt like this before, not in a long time. I wrapped my legs around his back and my arms around his neck, clinging to him for dear life. I don’t ever intend to let go. He smoothed back a few strands of my red hair that was covering my eyes. Gently kissing my forehead..................