Look. I realize this is going to make me sound bad. I realize I hinted at my trollish notions in another thread. My intent was good however.
I am a masterful manipulator. It is how I have stayed alive this long in a very hostile world. I gather information in many ways, some nice, some not so nice. It's like breathing to me. I do it with out even being aware of it most times.
I let people make assumptions about me. 90% of the time, it works out in my favour. If people have a pre-conceived notion about me, I can use it to my advantage. In any given situation I can gain the upper hand, providing they think I will react in a certain way.
My feelings are real. What I expressed in the above posts were quite real. However, I used one of my disadvantes to my advantage. Causing blunt force trauma with poorly chosen words. Key to success sort of think you know. I wrote a highly agitated emotional piece. Was I cracking the whip? Maybe slightly. I was trying to bring all of the pieces to the table. It is far easier, at least for me, to pick over only a piece or two at a time, but, highly desireable to have all the pieces there for my choosing.
Yes, I do fling in a wide arc. I guess we all do. Are we all nothing more then monkeys who still fling poop at one another from time to time? When flinging in a wide arc, I am bound to hit something, usually something I want. Lacking the skill and the resource to carefully tip toe at times, I bring out the poopoo bombing campaign to bring everything to the surface. I am then free to pick and choose what it is I wish to deal with, generally on my own time.
By letting loose with my acid tongue, I can usually bring out what it is I want or need from people, for example, Ozy was able to better put into words something then I could. Had I not put forth such a knee jerk biting response, would we still have such wonderfully chosen words? Something put so well? (At least I thought it was put well)
When folks leave such juicy bait in the water, I simply can not resist tossing my own line in. It's not the fish I am after, rather, the technique of the fishermen around me.
Hmm I hope somebody understands this and it is not taken the wrong way. I am a wee bit hesitant to post this.