I know how hard this is, I used to cry myself to sleep everynight. I have had to become stronger and try to focus on my health now. I put on 5 stone from the stress and shortly after my child was taken I was kicked out of hospital too early by a Doctor and re-admitted the very next day with a dangerously high blood pressure of 210/110. Just remember sweety, your children will always be with you in your heart and they will come back (they will want to know their Mum). Unfortunately my family didn't believe that the lies and corruption existed and only believe me now after they did so much damage. My family meddled and made a bigger mess for me and just left the area by moving house. I'm only giving up because it is too difficult after almost four years of fighting a very corrupt and unfortunately the most powerful government department in NZ.