dARLING- i DON'T KNOW IF I;M ENTIRELY APPROPRIATE FOR THIS WEB SITE. eXACTLY WHAT DO U MEAN WHENU SAY SURVIVOR....IS THIS WEB SITE EXCLUSIVELY FOR SURVIVORS
sURVIVORS OF WHAT?
I'm currently a Physician -diagnostic Radiology, but I have an MS in counseling psych and worked as a therapist, teste, case manager, rehaa. for two years..before I realized I was a poor listener....to others-my clients- I was tired,...the client was boring,
daydreaming....and I said, well, I tried to make it as a rosk star-that bottomed out real badly, I did best when
I free formed it with really disturbed adolescents-locked ward-Danvers Hospital.....they were really sick kids, but
It was fun....in a reg office with a a pecking order, anan aggressive goal oriented boss;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
hey I'm fallin asleep....anyway I realized I was a lousy therapist,,,so I went to Med School and sublimated my problems toyally by selecting a very tough 4 year program in NY, PLUS i STARTED A THREE YEAR RRAAA FALLING ASLEEP AGAIN iNTERNAL mEDICINE RESIDENCY- i LEFT THAT PROGRAM AFTER i FINISHED THE YEAR LIKE AN INTERNSHIP, AFTER THE 4 YEARS, i DID ANOTHER YEAR AT gTOWN IN DC..BUT THINGS ARE STILL CHANGING FOR ME- IN HUGE WAYS....NOW AS FAR AS ABUSE
i HAVE ABUSED DRUGS FOR 38 YEARS WAS IN REHAB TWICE,
HAD A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN SO i WAS HOSPITALIZED IN cHICAGO
FOR FOUR AND I/2 MONTHS, MY MOTHER DEFINITELY ABUSED ME- SHE CALLED ME A PIECE OF ****, MY 16 YEAR MARRIAGE ENDED IN DIVORCE- wHEN i DRANK i WAS NASTY, AND i'M SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSURE i WAS VERBALLY ABUSIVE, DURING THE PAST YEAR..SINCE WE SPLIT, MY WIFE HAS BEEN EXTREMELY VERBALLY ABUSIVE TO ME....oNE OF MY THERAPIST HAD A THEORY THAT i WAS RAPED BY A FAmily memeber-because I had alot of pyscho-sexual problems-aanyway, I am not only a radiologist, I;m a moderator on a huge yahoo website and I do a lot of dedicated work for a cause,,,,I'm a 50 yo MtF preop transsexual-I look like Goldie Hawn now....5 years ago I looked like Jason Alexander....I've seen 27 therapists since I was 12...I had ECT, I was suicidal......NO MORE,....I'M A HAPPY GIRL NOW,,,,,BUT EMOTIONALLY I'M ANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN nICE TALKIN TO YOU i'VE GOTTA GET IN BED-VERY STRESSED OUT HAVEN'T SLEPT OR ATE FOR TWO DAYS...NEXT WEEK BOTH FAMILIES COMOIN IN FOR mY SON'S bAR MITZVAH....THEY ALL KNOW ABOUT ME AND THEY HAVE COME AROUND TO ACCE..Have to be a guy one more tome for Jake...willl tie my blonde hair back in a pony...last time I wear that Armani suit.STRESS WITH SISTER BUT SHE CALLS ME SIS NOW, JUST GAVE ME A pRADA CARRYALL AND A BLACK nICOLE mILLER DRESS -SIZE 6-i CANT FIT THAT...THEN A WEEK LATER i FLY TO sf I'm spendin3 d3 days with a model and image consultant in santa cruz Then I have a meeting with 5 or 6 people, I think all Drs. and all Transsexual,,,about starting a TS referrall service, the next day i spend 15 hours on or tab;le undergoing facial feminization surgey and getting implants...one moth recovery--6 months til swelling down, GTG...I've been used abuse, shuz...Oh I've had 8 or 9 male shrinks...I'm writing a book about them who were nasty, cursed at me said filthy things to me, ....real abuse...oh one of my shrinks also cakked me a piece of crap I paid the 90$ AND CAME BACK NEXT WEEK FOR MORE PUNISHMENT-IF THAT ISNT ABUSE luv, Natalie Ilana Freed MS MD
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