This is a general feel good post that I decided to post in Thunderdome so it won't get lost in the daily and people can sound off. It's a general thought to the past few months posts regarding "I got here but things just aren't going how I thought they were!" I view this as a "why me?" kind of thought. I had them too. I mean it took so long and so much money to get to the point of pregnancy would it be too hard to ask to have a smooth pregnancy? Nope. We lost a twin and didn't find out until 20 weeks. At the very same ultrasound our baby had an enlarged stomach and we had to have 4 week follow ups with a peri that I can only describe at the Soup Nazi Doctor (Seinfeld). My water broke early for no reason and I didn't go into labor. Really? I wanted to shout Can I have some NORMALCY here? I should add the delivery was easy and amazing so there was a silver lining. My daughter is now 4 and what a ride it has been. My infertility experience with all it's bumps has prepared me well for the bumps that come along. Because they do all the time. The worry is always there - it's just something new! My worries now are no longer is she growing enough? Am I drinking enough? Should I get the epi? My worries now are is she making friends? Will she be ready for Kindergarten? Should she be starting to read? Why is she mixing up her letters?
Where are we now? Well we love the challenge and worry so much we are doing this all again though down a different path than before. We'd love to add to our family but my body never did a regroup after pregnancy and my fertility stats went further down despite my best efforts. We are starting the DE process which I am uber excited about. I just had to get there mentally.
I'll share my motto in life that I borrowed from Conan O'Brien:
“Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get.
But if you work really hard and you’re kind, amazing things will happen.
I’m telling you, amazing things will happen. I’m telling you, it’s just true!”
And my husband who is the official writer in our household (it's his profession) wrote a blog post for my blog on National Infertility week:
So hoping when you are feeling worried or anxious borrow my thoughts for the day and give your worries to someone else. You can't change the past without changing the whole either way. Best of Luck!