It's been 38 days since my D told me about the abuse. She made videos for my H last week so he could see all the changes around the house telling him "...but you'll see that soon anyway."
A positive aspect was H was able to see the D we share for the first time in two & a half weeks yesterday. CPS oddly said supervised with H only by me...not even her grandparents. It's odd b/c two weeks ago she asked me if I was divorcing H.
My D makes the psych comments on occasion. Does not act like anything is going on. She loves the therapist, has mentioned about not knowing about lying again among some other odd comments. Other D mentions nothing about our lives at all.
Today I found out that my babysitters 12 yr.old son had s.a. his younger niece last year. I don't know in what way or when, it was mentioned by a thirdhand source who thought I knew. All my girls have been over there at some point, my 2yr old was watched weekly & the older two were watched as needed. In May I asked her if she could watch the older 2 during summer break & for the first time she said she couldn't but could watch the baby. I haven't been able to talk with my sitter b/c the day this all came out in the open- she said she was leaving her H. A week later I took her, her son, & her older D to the airport & they left town indefinately due to 'marital problems'.
Needless to say, on top of everything else, I'm even more confused. My H still wants to find out what's happened and help my D (his step-D). When I told him about babysitters he was livid that we were never told when it happened (rightly so). His reaction about an abuser around his biological child showed me even more his feelings about this issue & I have a hard time understanding the accusation against him from my D especially after seeing his disgust with this (knowing our 2 yr old was there a lot). I keep wondering if she confused his name with this boy or her bio D why that would happen. Then remembering she has no fear of my H & writes him cards, etc...
It's what I wake up thinking about & go to sleep thinking about. I try to find the good from bad situations but this just isn't surfacing.
Does this make any sense? There isn't much I can do now that the sitter went away with her son.
Well, I promised myself I would mop the floor tonight. Trying to get back to "normal" lol. If there is a thing.
Thanks for hearing my rant.
Posted on Jul 1, 2009, 12:05 AM from IP address 74.130.42.192
