Understandably,I have become even more over protective than I was and a little bit more neurotic especially with one of my D.(Although 5 were abused she and S who was abused at camp have suffered the worst)I hesitate to say that because ALL abuse is horrible but the word molest can mean everything from fondling to rape.In these 2 cases it was rape at the ages of 9 and 5.The others seem to be able to deal much better...Anyway,I find myself especially protective with D.I am a wreck when she is out late at night.(S is a married man now)She just graduated from high school and is getting ready to leave for college next month.I am a mess although would NEVER let on to her.I want to make things better for her.I want to make her better...
Sometimes God whispers to us.Sometimes through a friend,through nature,scripture,music,you name it He can and will use it to speak to us and sometimes He even uses our own voices to speak to our hearts.Yesterday.I was doing 4th of July crafts with my 8 yr.old and some of the neighbor kids.There was a 3 yr.old and a 4 yr old too so I asked the 8 year olds to help them out a little.."But"I said"helping them does not mean doing it for them.you can guide them but let them do it themselves"Lightening bolt!I can guide her and support her but she needs to do this for herself.She needs to heal and build a beautiful life for herself.I can do all I can to love and help her through but I need to see and believe she is strong and capable,which she is.If I can recognize the strength in her I can help her to see it in herself.Go baby girl go!
So the 4th of July crafts were adorable and yes the little ones Uncle Sam's nose was a little off center and the stripes on his hat weren't lined up just so but boy were those babies proud when their mommy came to get them and they could show her what they had made.
Posted on Jul 2, 2009, 8:23 AM from IP address 98.25.230.69
