I am finding myself suddenly super depressed. I hardly even have the energy to post this. But figured better to reach out than to stuff it all in.
My daughter is rapidly gaining weight. I honestly don't know where she is getting the food (she is 7 so it's not like she can go to the store on her own). I know it has got to be getting uncomfortable. I have spoken w/ the pediatrician... all I can really do is monitor what happens at home. I do not want to make a big deal out of it w/ her because I know how sensitive an issue this can be. And then last night she was crying about practicing her harp. Just inconsolable about a particular piece. I have no idea what it is about this piece... it is not difficult at all... but she loses her s*it all the time when it comes to practicing it. I told her to skip it. I will talk to her teacher about some sort of change or elimination. But.... and she is getting totally freaked about anyone touching her (particularly her siblings). She ended therapy in mid-May, but I have contacted her therapist about starting up again. Waiting to hear back.
I am just so sad my daughter has this in her life. I find myself getting angry again. Mostly at the family members who have vanished. Those who just don't want to get it. Those who wonder "why doesn't Nonnie just let it go?" I have let go of so much. I am just really stuck watching my daughter's pain. I feel like I don't really have the luxury of letting that go.
Okay.... just starting to ramble and cry. If you made it this far, thanks for reading. It does help a tiny bit to put it out there.
Posted on Jul 7, 2009, 1:38 PM from IP address 76.211.227.31
