Hi everyone.
I feel so totally neglectful of you all. I started posting here back in September, 2009 and then it got too painful for me to hear about other child abuse.
My daughter was sexually abused by her grandfather and told me last August (almost 1 year ago). Since then she has come a long way in healing. Her and I have both been going to a wonderful therapist and I still go to her but I am almost done.
While going through my daughter's stuff, I started to talk to my therapist about my own physical abuse as a child and that opened up a whole other nightmare that now I realize needed to be healed.
I've written 24 poems since last October which helped.
I've been very close to hospitalization.
My therapist is so amazing but it's been tough thinking about letting her go. I've become too attached.
The grandfather (my father in law) is pleading guilty (Thank God) but now he had a suicide attempt last weekened after my niece came out and realized she too had been molested by him (My niece didn't even know anything that had happened to my daughter)
So much going on and I just want to believe it all never happened.
My mother in law is still with the guy. She believes he has dementia or some other crap to have made him do this (* rolls eyes *)
She said to me last weekend that we are lucky we can do stuff as a family and try to forget - THIS IS PISSING ME OFF TO NO END - Yes of course we can, we never did anything wrong. There is nothing wrong with trying to be normal again. UGH
Sorry for long post.
I hope to talk to you all soon.
Take care
Julie
Posted on Jul 14, 2009, 6:32 AM from IP address 68.71.10.34
