Ok guys I am new to this message board but I just found this site and it is so refreshing to see that there are more people out there than just me who are going through the exact same thing. I just found out about a year ago that my three and four year old daughters were being sexually abused by their biological father, my ex husband. The whole process has been quite painful with CPS, the courts, and State Police all being involved. I have successfully kept the children from him for a year now but it is like holding a pack of bull dogs at bay. He has managed to slip through everything and is now fighting to get his parental rights back. All this along with the fact that my four year old just revealed to me two days ago that he stuck his "clock" in her bottom first and when it wouldn't go he stuck it in the other hole. Those were her exact words. I am very overwhelmed with the new information and at the same time feel so guilty that I feel so overwhelmed. I have held myself together this long but I honestly feel that I could have a nervous breakdown. I have panic attacks, can't sleep at night, and am extremely emotional. It's like I am experiencing an emotional overload and that if I hear anything else, I am just going to crack. Is it normal to feel this way? Also, they never performed a physical exam. Does anyone out there know if a physical exam at this point would even be worth it? I never knew very much about sexual abuse before any of this occured and I have been trying to educate myself. The legal system and CPS are a totally different world and sometimes they just blow my mind. Any advice anyone?
Posted on Aug 20, 2009, 2:13 AM from IP address 173.81.175.36
