I'm finding myself feeling completely stuck and isolated. I want to feel everything and then to move on somehow. I want to let go of the bitterness and anger towards my husband. As i'm not fully aware of what i'm angry about.
My daughter has not fully disclosed as yet, she is 6. My husband is the only other person other than my daughter who knows the full truth. He seems to think that if he sticks with denial then one day i will forget about everything and let it go. But i CANT. Had he had an affair i know i would have let it go by now, but this i cant.
I am angry at him, for his selfishness. Putting his baby girl through all that he put her through. For letting me carry on being eaten up by this. By keeping the truth to himself and by sticking with denial.
I know it may seem like i'm being selfish, but i need to know the truth, scared as i am of hearing it.
Posted on Oct 20, 2009, 12:04 PM from IP address 80.239.242.138
