I certainly don't feel like a strong woman. For a while i did try to show a strong exterior but on the inside i feel like i'm crumbling, broken and weak.
The fact that the police said they have 'no proof' to go on and because i or my daughter have not disclosed they cannot pursue it. So i'm left to keep him from getting to her as best i can.
We do see him regularly, because he still has a legal right to the house, and because he 'wants to see the children'. I watch him like a hawk when hes there and he knows it. When she playfully goes and sits near him i try and move her or he does it himself now, before i get a chance. It angers me that she should be able to sit on his lap. He's her 'dad'. :-(
I'm going to be having an initial asessment meeting with her therapist on Monday. I am looking forward to being able to talk openly about what has happened for the past 7 months and beyond. But at the same time my stomach is churning thinking about having to 'face' the realities.
I will keep u posted about how it goes. And please keep me and my children in your prayers.:-)
Posted on Oct 24, 2009, 3:03 AM from IP address 80.239.242.42
