I am trying my best to hold it all together as I process what has happened to my 7 yr. old son. He made statements 2 weeks ago and as I was directed by his physician's office, took him to the ER for an exam and consult. It seems like things are moving in slow motion, and I understand that it's the holiday season, people are off on vacation and why should anything stop for me and my child?! I was able to get the judge to order suspended visits with his dad while the investigation is pending. She is, however, allowing him to have supervised visits for 2 hours every other week. Meanwhile, his "acting out" behavior is increasing on what seems like a daily basis. Tonight, for example, I thought he was asleep when he woke up screaming, "I don't want it!" I asked him what he meant and he just kept asking me to please turn on the light. He has NEVER been afraid of the dark and even as I write this, he is tossing and turning still. I'm trying to figure out who to talk to, professionally speaking. I have not heard back from CPS yet, and they reminded me that they have "up to 30 days to investigate". This seems so extreme to me, especially considering that it's sexual abuse. But she kept using the term "no proponderance" as if nothing was too serious. Tomorrow I plan to call the Child Advocacy Center back to see about counseling. I'm trying to "handle this" as best as I can but my heart keeps breaking as I don't recognize who my child is in this moment. He is scared, angry, confused, and at times close to delerious with fear. If you have any suggestions on who to talk to, please let me know. This is more than what I ever thought I could handle.
Posted on Dec 27, 2011, 12:06 AM from IP address 184.108.40.206