God loves you very much and your children. He didn't allow for this to happen. God gives all of us free will we make the choices. When I found out that my husband sexually assaulted my little girl I learned the hard way that God was there for me and was the only one that was big enough to carry me when I was my weekest. I know you are hurting deeply and so are the rest of us but, when the time comes and you get back with God He will be just as loving and patient and he was before you found out. Reading the Bible can also help you to understand the mess we are all in. I don't want to preach to you but, I want to comfort and ease your pain. I know the pain so well and it will ease up in time. You will have to decide when that time is for you because we are all different. I do not want my ex husband to take away any more time away from me than he already has. I suffered physically and mentally. There were times I couldn't pick myself off of the floor. This man was and is a deputy!! How could this happen to us? We were and are christians. I ask this over and over. Will I be able to forgive? I don't have that answere because after 2 years I have not. I wish I could for myself and my children. Hate eats at my heart each day. I don't trust people as I once did. The aftermath is unbearable at times. You can and will pull through. Please be good to yourself.
Posted on Feb 9, 2012, 1:10 PM from IP address 220.127.116.11