Kim, I think most of us feel and have felt the way you are feeling right now. I'm some twenty years down the pike since disclosure, daughters are in their 40's now and it's still not smooth sailing with them yet and may never be. I think that I took too much in upon myself and behaved in a subservient way to my daughters once I'd found out through my own sense of guilt in not knowing and thus, not protecting them...but also in the pain surrounding the sexual abuse and not knowing that I was a secondary victim of sexual abuse. I'm not sure the empty shell will repair easily or quickly. Somehow you'll have to find something to put in there to shore yourself up and as others suggest, therapy is one way that will help.
Posted on Apr 8, 2012, 7:22 PM from IP address 184.108.40.206