This has been going on for almost 4 years. As far as I am concerned, she waited way too long to tell me, but I would never tell her that! I have told her how strong and courageous she is. I have told her I wish I had known because I would have ended it much sooner, but the important thing is, he isn't welcome back here now or ever again. Yes, he is in jail, being held without bond on 3 felony charges and a misdemeanor. At the arraignment, they will continue to ask he be held without bond. He has no family here either and no job so he is a flight risk. And, I know it isn't my fault and DEFINITELY isn't her fault, but I can't help but go through it all and see what I might have missed! Honestly, there isn't anything that is popping up yet. She is an honor student, involved with civic and church groups, works part time, very level headed and seems to have it "all together". I have set up an appointment for us but she doesn't know it yet. I am working on encouraging her to decide she needs to speak to someone as opposed to taking that control away from her and telling her she has to tell someone. I want her to feel as if she has as much control as I can give her.
I am also a survivor of CSA so I am totally devastated for her. :( I feel beyond weak and helpless. I would say I feel numb, but I want to vomit, cry, and I hurt so bad inside. Plus, there is a fiery pit burning in my soul. I gave my world to him, I turned my life upside down for him. I have put up with so much **** (he's a combat veteran) and advocated for him. And he dared to do THIS to a little girl who has called him Daddy for 12 years!!!!!! I'm pissed! I'm destroyed. I'm lost.
As far as rainn.org. I went to their "chat" support today and it was cold and impersonal. I felt like I was chatting with a computer that was copying and pasting. I doubt I will go back there.
Posted on Apr 28, 2012, 5:43 PM from IP address 220.127.116.11