Not sure:

If you can find comfort in death. I never have. On another note: I have found letting a loved one go is comforting -and a powerful experience. Death unexpected and violent is so kmuch differnet than the beauty of just letting go.

Hopefully when your hubby does go, you can be there and share that wonderful lifetime experience.

Undoubetly it ill be a huge change for you. None of us like change - but with it comes growth and power.

I have been working with two women who have recently lost their husbands. Their finaces are a mess and for the most part they are LOST.

Being what I am I'm really tough on them about change. I know they think I'm a S.O.B. but they keep calling, thus I must give some kind of strength and reassurance. I don't know if I'm a freind or nuts, but these are people in need and no one else seems to care.

It takes a long time to begin to understand people on this mediuam. Your a very special person Onelife. I sincerely hope when your particaption in ending this wonderful experience of life that you might consider it a blessing and not as a loss.

You have spoke of your land, trees, and effort to maintain and harvest your land. This is part of your life - when your hubby is gone the burden will double - and you will handle it.

You have always made the most from the worst and that is unlikely to ever change.