Agreed, My friendApril 8 2012 at 12:17 PM
Tess (Login tesswretched)
Response to Fear
That is my worst nightmare/fear as well.
I finally have achieved some success in learning how to live without nicotine and smoking.
I can recognise the lie of living in the smoke screen. It was NOT easier to smoke away my feelings. I don't want to have cigarrettes love me because I feel unworthy of anything or anyone else.
It was very hard to learn how to deal with my emotions without a crutch and honestly, I am still learning, BUT I am worth it.
Truth is, I saw my parents smoke. They smoked mad, happy, drunk, and crazy. I learned how to cope as a young girl with a lit cigarrette in my mouth. I quit crying, hoping, dreaming, and trying, and I smoked instead.
My dreams went up in smoke.
My BIGGEST FEAR is smoking again and not being able to quit.
Love you, Annaree. Mean it.
"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure...but if you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
Smokeless since 9/12/2010