Time to put the brakes on and turn around and head the right direction.

My sister is here. I went to see her yesterday. Had fun, ate way too much and some bad for me things. (Smores Galore pie is soooooooooooo good!) Been living it up a lot this last week, enjoying my freedom. But, now it is time to get back on track and eat healthier. I found out yesterday that he is not going to be coming back here to this house anytime soon, maybe never, and everyone in his family, including him (according to his niece), thinks I should just stay here as long as I can or want to. Everyone, including him, knows and understands it is over for us and there is no going back on that. But they feel I deserve to be here. It has been home for 26 years, and I am comfy here as long as he is NOT here. I am going to go ahead and get my dad's trailer cleaned up and fixed up enough I can live in it if I need to, and I will leave most of my stuff over there so if things/attitudes change, moving won't take more than a day. But, here I have the fireplace,plenty of wood, food storage, and a lot of people looking out for me, so I am going to stay as long as I can. His family is being very good to me. They understand a lot more things than I thought they would. His one cousin said that he is her relative, but I am her family. Made me feel good. Anyway, for now I am staying put, with a plan B in place. Making today a healthy day. Need to do it for ME.