Vielleicht denkst ja auch Du für Dich, dass man am Ende Deines Lebens wird sagen können: "Der hätte noch lange gehalten, wenn man ihm etwas mehr Sorge getragen hätt.." Und vermutlich hast Du auch schon erfahren, dass die mit den lautesten Mäulern gelegentlich doch die Falschesten sind (es kann schrecklich schwierig sein, jemanden, der als Einzelkind aufgewachsen ist, als Vorgesetzten zugeteilt zu bekommen; von einem noch Höheren, der den Einblick schlicht nicht mehr hat). Und Du kennst möglicherweise ja auch manche Christen. Sie sind so wie Du und ich nie werden wollen...
Ich habe ja nicht mal Macht über mich selber (dabei gilt: Macht macht sexy!). Aber sobald ich's schaffe, mich mal nirgends mehr zu verkrampfen.... dann begin ich vielleicht zu merken: Wir werden weitgehend so viel leiden, wie wir uns selbst quälen.
Rundherum begegnet man so vielen Leuten mit krankhaften, bösen Verdächtigungen; mit Ängsten; Leute, die einem so oft missdeuten. Und vor dieser (bis zu einem nächsten, unweigerlich kommenden Ausbruch oft verkrampft vesteckten) Gefühlswelt solcher Leute findet man typischerweise eine hauchdünne Fassade einer selbstverständlichen, heilen Welt. Und eine fordernde, zornige Stellung gegenüber der andern, realen Umgebung .
Sogar völlig ungläubige Leute bekennen und erfahren gelegentlich eine höhere Führung.
Und tun wir nicht vielleicht Manches, nur um uns selbst zu beweisen, dass wir alles mögliche getan haben und so gesegnet werden müssen? Mit auch noch so viel zusätzlicher Anstrengung bewirke ich nur noch geringfügig mehr (schade dafür aber unter Umständen dem natürlichen Gleichgewicht bedeutend mehr).
Eines der allerbesten Mädchen, die ich je gekannt hab, lässt sich von einem Geier, der gern eine Gewehrpatrone um den Hals trägt, abschleppen (von Ihr hab ich geschrieben seit dem ersten hier gespeicherten Berichtchen..). Und wieder ein anderes Girl will vor allem denen gefallen, die gegen mich sind.. (oder die viel besser sind... schluchz). Und jetzt soll mir doch einer sagen, wie ich mich trösten lassen soll..! Besser offener Tadel als verhehlte Liebe..
There are so different people.. some (like me) would feel fine on a completely overcrowded small island (where the first ones begin to fall of the shore), others need to have a wide space (even physically). (Perhaps they or we supplement almost perfectly?).
And none can keep alive his own soul.
The dragon stood before the woman being about to bear, so that when she bears he might devour her child. And she bore a son, a male,.. And the great dragon was cast out... He was cast out into the earth, and his angels were cast out with him. And I heard a great voice saying in Heaven, Now ...the accuser of our brothers is cast down, who accused them before our God day and night.. (Revelation).
Did you at any a time wonder about God? Well, this shows: You must be one of His creations (and one of His speech tubes?)! The creator even puted this question (the question for Him) in our hearts. It states that He is longing to establish a relationship to us. And if He created us (and the whole world) He is God; only if He is that one! (to serve God don't mean to go to church on sunday. Were called to live our whole lifes before Him)!
In many a way we will automatically "make" God what we know of Him or want Him to be.
But I guess He is an own individual person "as we"!
So the question could be posted: What for did He build this?
We, as the creation may never be able to understand the Creator in it's full (perhaps rather when we once will "see Him as He is"; as we shall be changed to fit for this).
The glory of God is to hide a thing (but the honor of many a man is to search out a matter).
We are to collect some others of His works and build, assemble them to new compositions. Here! Gathered together with... äääh ..for You:
Loving favor is rather better than silver or gold. Let's put a knife to our throat, if we are given to appetite. Let's cease from our own understanding but let's buy the truth (and sell it not); also wisdom, and instruction, and right understanding; and let's apply our heart to instruction and our ears to the words of knowledge. For surely there is a hereafter, and our hope shall not be cut off.. And let's watch God's ways with our eyes.. Let's not `say, I will do so to him as he has done to me; I will give to the man according to his work. A word fitly spoken is like apples of gold in pictures of silver.
In the morning as a day begins we will be indefinitely away of now (what we were just a few hours ago..). If we find honey let's eat only as much as is enough for, lest we be filled with it and vomit it. Let's withdraw our foot from our neighbor's house, lest he be weary of us and hate us. Like cold waters to a thirsty soul.. is? You to me!.. The legs of the lame are not equal; so is a parable in the mouth of fools. As a thorn goes up into the hand of a drunkard, so is a parable in the mouth of fools. The words of a talebearer are as wounds, and they go down into the innermost parts of the belly. He who hates pretends with his lips and stores up deceit within him. When he makes his voice gracious, do not believe him; for seven hateful things are in his heart. He who blesses his friend with a loud voice, rising early in the morning, it shall be counted a curse to him. Hell and destruction are never full; so the eyes of man are never satisfied. Though you should pound a fool like me in a bowl with a bar in the midst of wheat, his foolishness will not depart from him. Those who seek Jahweh (also, like me, hopefully..) understand all things
The bible (which is completely different from the Koran) ain't trying to reduce our being or welfare to obey or disobey. In the contrary it reveals that we are just not able to bear the law (which in itself is good and right but we cant fulfill it..). It shows that we need the saviour and redeemer from the law. The law cant bring us to God because no one is able to do it (and everyone stumbling in only just one of the smallest of this law has become a transgressor against Him, the One who gave them all.. For as many as are out of works of the Law, these are under a curse; for it is written, "Cursed is everyone who does not continue in all things which are written in the Book of the Law, to do them." But that no one is justified by the Law in the sight of God is clear, for, "The just shall live by faith.". But the Law is not of faith; but, "The man who does these things shall live in them.". Christ redeemed us from the curse of the Law, being made a curse for us (for it is written, "Cursed is everyone having been hanged on a tree"); ....that we might receive the promise of the Spirit through faith. For in it the righteousness of God is revealed from faith to faith, as it is written, "The just shall live by faith."
For the unseen things of Him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being realized by the things that are made, even His eternal power and Godhead, ....but professing to be wise, some became fools and changed the glory of the incorruptible God into an image made like corruptible man, and birds, and four-footed animals, and creeping things.....
as it is written: "There is none righteous, no not one; there is none that understands, there is none that seeks after God." "They are all gone out of the way, they have together become unprofitable, there is none that does good, no, not one." "Their throat is an open grave, with their tongues they have used deceit, the poison of asps is under their lips; whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness;" "their feet are swift to shed blood; destruction and misery are in their way, and the way of peace they did not know." "There is no fear of God before their eyes." But we know that whatever things the Law says, it says to those who are under the Law; so that every mouth may be stopped and all the world may be under judgment before God, because by the works of the Law none of all flesh will be justified in His sight; for through the Law is the knowledge of sin. But now a righteousness of God has been revealed apart from Law, being witnessed by the Law and the Prophets; even the righteousness of God through the faith of Jesus Christ, toward all and upon all those who believe. For there is no difference, for all have sinned and come short of the glory of God, being justified freely by His grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus; whom God has set forth to be a propitiation through faith in His blood, to declare His righteousness through the passing by of the sins that had taken place before, in the forbearance of God; for the display of His righteousness at this time, for Him to be just and, forgiving the one being of the faith of Jesus. Then where is the boasting? It is excluded. Through what law? Of works? No, but through the law of faith. Therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the works of the law...
What shall we say then? Is the law sin? Let it not be said! But I did not know sin except through the law. For also I did not know lust except the law said, You shall not lust. But sin, taking occasion by the commandment, worked in me all kinds of lust. For apart from law sin was dead. For I was alive without the law once. But when the commandment came, sin revived and I died. And the commandment, which was to life, was found to be death to me. For sin, taking occasion by the commandment, deceived me, and by it killed me. So indeed the Law is holy, and the commandment is holy and just and good. Then has that which is good become death to me? Let it not be! But sin, that it might appear to be sin, working death in me by that which is good; in order that sin might become exceedingly sinful by the commandment. For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am carnal, sold under sin. For that which I do, I know not. For what I desire, that I do not do; but what I hate, that I do. If then I do that which I do not desire, I consent to the law that it is good. But now it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) dwells no good thing. For to will is present with me, but how to perform that which is good I do not find. For I do not do the good that I desire; but the evil which I do not will, that I do. But if I do what I do not desire, it is no more I working it out, but sin dwelling in me. I find then a law: when I will to do the right, evil is present with me. For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man; but I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin being in my members. O wretched man that I am! Who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.
(from Galatians 3 and Romans 3......)
Bevor der Pilz alt wird, probiert er, sein Erbgut (hier wär's dann "das Gedankengut"?) an andre weiterzugeben (der Eigenbrötler braucht dazu keine Zweite). Der grösste Teil seines eigentlichen Wesens ist unsichtbar in der Erde. Gelegentlich neigt man dazu, sich. in gewissen, als "edel" befundenen Gedanken- oder Verhaltensmustern aufzuhängen.
Wird nicht die Umwelt (z.B. auch eine betrachtete Frau, vielleicht noch mehr als ein Mann) zu dem was sie in den Augen dessen, der sie in seinen Gedanken eben "macht"; zu ihrem Erscheinungsbild geformt?
Die Liebe ist's! Sie lässt einen Nutzloses mit lächeln tun; sie macht den Jogger joggen; lässt den Guten probieren gut zu sein; das Schlechte gut erscheinen; sie lässt mich morgens (wenn ich glücklich bin) aufstehen; am Mittag traurig die Flöte blasen; sie macht mich dieses schreiben; .. und sie kann auch viele Schmerzen bewirken... (all dies müsst sonst ja die Angst oder der Hunger bewirken!).
Hoppla! Da ist's ja schon wieder! Dieses so selten nur angebrachte Wörtchen: Alles!
In diesem Fall (vielleicht?): Alles was es braucht... ist?.. Liebe! (oder: Die Jagd, die sich wirklich lohnt... die Jagd auf die Fähigkeit zu lieben). Oder wenn man Gott drum bittet, Er möge alles zum Guten führen..?
Und: Alles nur faule Ausreden! (oder denkst Du, da müsse noch irgendwo ein Gegenpol sein..?)
Lässt man sich nur zwei- dreimal unschuldig auf die Backe schlagen, kann das Erlebte schon ganz schön wunderbar (gottesnah?) werden.
Hat der absolut gerechte Gott den Tod nicht nur eingeführt als eine Möglichkeit für den unvermögenden, gläubigen Sünder, um durch das stellvertretende Opfer, in oder aus der zerbrochnen Schöpfung Vergebung zu erlangen? Er gab ihnen Röcke von Fell statt der Feigenblätter; und uns Jesum statt der eignen Gerechtigkeit ("..andere hat er gerettet, sich selbst aber kann er nicht retten..").
And Jahweh God called to Adam and said to him, Where are you?
And he said, I heard Your voice in the garden, and I was afraid, because I am naked, and I hid myself. And He said, Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten of the tree which I commanded you that you should not eat? And the man said, The woman whom You gave to be with me, she gave me of the tree, and I ate.
A quiet early but as we guess a false complaint. Adam accused this wonderful and beautiful help which God brought to him (Gen. 2.22) and by this he accused God. Lets just go deep enough inside of ourselves and we'll surely find him there: the old son of Adam.
God then sent them out from the garden of Eden to till the ground from which they had been taken; but He gave a promis to eve:
..you shall bruise His heel (Gen. 3.15 ). "His" is the heel of the serpent and "You" the seed of the woman.
A little bit later (Genesis. 4):
And Adam knew Eve his wife. And she conceived and bore Cain, and said, I have gotten a man from Jahweh.
She might have thought this to be the hope of many a woman even today in Israel: The promised "Son Of Man", the Messiah.
Verse 2: And she bore again, his brother Abel. And Abel was a keeper of sheep, but Cain was a tiller of the ground.
Abel means something like "void, vain,.." (my english is quiet short).
Verse 3: And in the end of days, it happened, Cain brought to Jahweh an offering of the fruit of the ground. And Abel also brought of the firstlings of his flock and of the fat of it. And Jahweh had respect to Abel and to his offering, but He did not have respect to Cain and to his offering. And Cain glowed with anger, and his face fell. And Jahweh said to Cain, Why have you angrily glowed? And why did your face fall? If you do well, shall you not be accepted? And if you do not do well, sin crouches at the door; and its desire is for you, and you shall rule over it. And Cain talked with his brother Abel. And it happened when they were in the field, Cain rose up against his brother Abel and killed him. And Jahweh said unto Cain, Where is your brother Abel? And he said, I do not know. Am I my brother's keeper?
Yes! We all are our keepers! Cain was the first to offer, and the one who "talked to Abel" ..
And God said, What have you done? The voice of your brother's blood cries to Me from the ground... And Cain went out from the presence of Jahweh and lived in the land of Nod, on the east of Eden.
At the begin of the chapter five we may see again the words: "This is the book of.." (in Hebrew: "toledoth" which means résumé or concentration or summary.. It can be used as a dividing of two tales, whereby it belongs to the prior one (also see chapter two)!
Why didn't God look on Cain?
1.John 3.11:
For this is the message that you have heard from the beginning, that we should love one another
not as Cain who was of the evil one, and killed his brother. And for what did he kill him? Because his own works were evil, and his brother's things were righteous.
1.John. 4.9 ff:
In this the love of God was revealed in us, because God sent His only begotten Son into the world that we might live through Him. In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation concerning our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another. No one has seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwells in us, and His love is perfected in us. By this we know that we dwell in Him, and He in us, because He has given us of His Spirit .... And we have known and believed the love that God has in us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him..
Genesis 4.25:
And Adam knew his wife again. And she bore a son, and called his name Seth. For she said, God has appointed me another seed instead of Abel, because Cain killed him. And there was also a son born to Seth, and he called his name Enos. Then men began to call upon the name of Jahweh.
Now from this Seth (which means "Replace") there later (see Matthew 1) followed Jesus.
And who Jesus had to fight? The religious! And who made the people shout: Crucify..?).
And he surely is the pomised Messiah!
And even through his dying and rising again after three days, He *bruised the serpents heel*!
Every religion in the world relies our relationship toward God in something we do. But the fact is: He is the only one able to do! And he does and did!
One of the most important (I don't like the world all) things we can do is: remind God; and so show Him: We have understood!
There is a Lover who sticks closer than a brother.
Some plants might be thrown away just because they grew thorns.
As Christ was crucified they were plaiting a crown of thorns, and they puted it on His head. We guess not only to make us say "Oh the poor one..", but also to show that He took the curse of this creation on himself, for all those believing in the foolishness of the preaching and catching hold of the hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters into that within the veil, where the Forerunner has entered for us, even Jesus,...
Many will beg the favor of a ruler, and all are friends to a man who gives gifts.(26)
The judgment of a man puts off his anger; and it is his glory to pass over a transgression.
Lets cease to hear the discipline, only to stray from the words of knowledge.
Who can understand his errors?
It is bad! Bad, says the buyer; but when it is left to him, then he boasts.
It is a snare to a man to say rashly, A holy thing..
There is no wisdom nor understanding nor counsel against Jahweh.
... and the man who hears speaks on and on.
(Gibt's überhaupt noch was zu sagen..?)
Ich hab leider schon so vieles so falsch gesagt, zu hart geschrieben. Und ich hab so wenig das Tiefere, Gute auszudrücken vermocht. Zu wenig über dieses Einmalige, das die Liebe darreicht, gesagt.
Wie Ihr vielleicht schon gemerkt habt, bin ich eine eigentlich.. schätzungsweise.. leichte, "fröhliche" Natur. In mir singen zum Grossteil stets auch noch alte Melodien. Die alte Experimentier- und Bastelnatur lässt sich wohl auch kaum leugnen. Und doch hoff ich ganz fest auf Gott and Seine Gnade! (Da bin ich mir eigentlich ganz sicher.)
Die Welt scheint etwas ins Negative gerückt, so dass was zu positiv ist wieder negativ wird.
Was uns nachts auf dieser drehenden Kugel schlafen lässt ist vor allem Unwissenheit, Gefühlslosigkeit, Taubheit (infolge von evtl Müdigkeit).
Hatred stirs up fights, but love covers all sins.
A babbling fool shall fall (die neue Adressierart: http://network54.com/Hide/Forum/8217 ).
The hope of the wicked is wrath. If the foundations are destroyed, what can the righteous do? Jahweh is in His holy temple; Jahweh's throne is in Heaven; His eyes behold, His eyelids examine the children of men.
Isaiah 34.16:
Seek out of the book of Jahweh, and read (not one of these shall fail, none shall lack its mate).
In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth. (Genesis 1.1)
Then there this His created earth may have existed for a period of I don't know how long.
In this time that what we may call *the fall of The Old Dragon* could have taken it's place.
It seems so because we find (as He answered to Job):
Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell if you have understanding!
.... when the morning stars sang together and all the sons of God shouted for joy? (Job 38.4 ff)
These *morning stars* are what we may call angels.
One of them was *the anointed cherub*. And this one might have caused this earth to become:
..without form and empty. And darkness was on the face of the deep.. (Genesis 1.2a)
But God, as He formed the earth and made it; He made it stand, not creating it empty, but forming it to be inhabited. (Isaiah 45.18)
We find further (Ezekiel 28.13 ff) God speaking of this cherub:
You have been in Eden the garden of God... You were perfect in your ways from the day that you were created, until iniquity was found in you... I will cast you to the ground; and you will not be forever.
But: ..the Spirit of God moved on the face of the waters. (Genesis 1.2b)
And God said, Let there be light. And there was light. And God saw the light that it was good. And God divided between the light and the darkness. And God called the light, Day. And He called the darkness, Night. And the evening and the morning were the first day.
So we might see that the point of being *something* is the dividing, the edge of it. Everything else can come into something over a border. We further notice that God, our creator, *saw the light that it was good* (so also we might be bound to tell between... all this endless much of varieties.
So we're not abel to, and its often not *good* or truth to say: "All is.." (e. g. energy,..).
So Eden seems to have been on earth. For (Genesis 2.8) :
And Jahweh God planted a garden eastward in Eden. And there He put the man whom He had formed. And out of the ground Jahweh God caused to grow every tree that is pleasant to the sight, and good for food. The tree of life also was in the middle of the garden, and the tree of knowledge of good and evil.
Now this cherub might have wanted to be God (Isaiah 14.13) :
For you have said in your heart, I will go up to the heavens, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God..
He is not; but God "Is What He is" (Exodus 3.14).
He wanted to destroy His creation, His certificate, His joy (Genesis 3.1):
The serpent was more cunning than any beast of the field which Jahweh God had made. And he said to the woman, Is it so that God has said, You shall not eat of every tree of the garden?
As other times he doubted the word of God (which is not given to be doubted but to live by; man shall not live by bread or shrooms alone, but (Matthew 4.4) by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God).
So then! God might no longer have been able to be together with man and so and this is: man "died".
For before: Jahweh God commanded the man, saying, You may freely eat of every tree in the garden, but you shall not eat of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. For in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die. (Genesis 2.17)
Then: (Genesis 2.18) Jahweh God said, It is not good that the man should be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.
And Jahweh God formed ... a woman. And He brought her to the man. And Adam said, This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh. She shall be called Woman because she was taken out of man. Therefore shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave to his wife and they shall be one flesh.
They then said to the asking serpent, We may eat of the fruit of the trees of the garden. But of the fruit of the tree which is in the middle of the garden, God has said, You shall not eat of it, neither shall you touch it, lest you die. (Genesis 3.3.)
This was probably not truth because in the middle of the garden was *The tree of life*. (Genesis 2.7).
I've not read where He planted the shrooms (nor which tek He used; You may find one @
http://www.fanaticus.com ). But for sure He did!
His whole creation had fallen this day.
(Genesis 3.4): The serpent said to the woman, You shall not surely die, for God knows that in the day you eat of it, then your eyes shall be opened, and you shall be as gods, knowing good and evil. And when the woman saw that the tree was good for food. and that it was pleasing to the eyes, and a tree to be desired to make wise, she took of its fruit, and ate. She also gave to her husband with her, and he ate. And the eyes of both of them were opened. And they knew that they were naked. And they sewed fig leaves together and made girdles for themselves. And they heard the voice of Jahweh God walking in the garden in the cool of the day. And Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of Jahweh God in the middle of the trees of the garden.(... and behind these shrooms?)
The first humans on earth who saw the risen savior where Mary Magdalene, and Joanna, and Mary the mother of James (Luke 24.10).
Someday we'll get old and it will get precarious, subtle, harder.. and the stage is about to be broken down..
In all labor there is gain, but the talk of the lips tends only to poverty..
But our real gain could be to... .. be reconciled to God. For He has made Him who knew no sin, to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.
Jetzt (oder mindestens: bald) soll es aber besser werden..
Übrigens: Wer auch immer will, kann's mir gleich tun, und hier seinen Senf aus der Tube drücken. Man braucht dazu nicht unbedingt "Wall Street Orange" zu sprechen. Auch ein .. trockener .. Furz tät entzücken. Aber, nicht nur hier, merk ich schon, dass es eben doch nicht mehr so viele "elsewhere unheard ones" gibt... (ja, und vielleicht, wenn es gut kommt, gibt's bald auch diesen Einen hier in diesem Sinne nicht mehr.. aber vielleicht gibt's den eben in diesem Sinn auch doch noch sehr lang..).
Nicht jeder ist genug gesegnet, um alles schon zu wissen! Ich seh trotz dieser orangen Brille schon ein, dass ich Deinen Standpunkt nicht verstanden hab... und immer noch nicht kapiere (wahrscheinlich will aber keiner eine K1-Fight-Night zwischen mir und Dir sehn; im Karate und im Judo hielt ich's nicht bis zum Orange a-us.. ). Ihr denkt vielleicht, ich tät dies ja bloss, anstatt mal mit meiner Frau zu reden. Mancher möcht sich fragen, ob ich zu viel Zeit hab (weil ich dies hier kritzle).
Also: ein Versuch einer Entschuldigung für mein fortwährendes Belasten des Erdbodens (ich klau Dir Deine Orange schon nicht..) und dieses Servers:
Doch! Ich hab auch einen Job!
Aber ich hab im Lotto gewonnen; oder bin (nach 45 Jahren im Büro) jetzt pensioniert; oder versuche hier als Polizist mit orangen Streifen am Auto andre zur Preisgabe ihrer Geheimnisse (oder zu unüberlegten Fragen) zu verleiten; oder ich bin ein Staatsangestellter und benütze den Computer, wenn keiner schaut; oder ein Gammler, und leb von meiner Mutter oder Freundin.. (jener kleinen, indischen Prinzessin).
Die Güte der heutigen Jugend (und auch einiger älterer Leut) beschämt mich gelegentlich zutiefst (das ist kein Scherz).
Auch als vor kurzem ein Kind laut schreiend um eine Kleinigkeit heulte, die seinen Eltern scheinbar nicht passte, musst ich traurig sagen: Ohalätz! Hier und so wird jetzt also ein neuer Mensch gemacht, geformt, zurechtgestutzt, gebrochen an denselben Kanten, die seinen Eltern schon längst das Rückgrat "gebildet" haben (dabei wär's doch gut & schön, dass es überhaupt einen Wunsch und ungezähmten Willen noch hat,.. hatte). So wird der dann u.U. später auch seinen (mittlerweilen dann kranken) Willen andern aufzwingen wollen..(?)
Auch dies geschieht, während gleicherweise ein andrer, vielleicht Du oder ich, vielleicht ein anderer, Rechtschaffener, zu Gott schreit (soll er das nicht? oder hört Der uns auch nicht an?).
Wie schön ist's am Morgen! So lang wir uns noch nicht sehen, und uns in gegenseitigem Einverständnis noch etwas voreinander zu verstecken wagen, die Sonne (gesprochen vor dem 11. August) noch so schön orange ist (o.k.; es ist nicht nur dann schön).
Besteht der bestimmte, klare, von aussen schwer zu beschreibende Unterschied zwischen einer faulen und einer reifen (guten?) Frucht eigentlich schon vor ihrer Ernte? Oder ist es mehr nur eine unterschiedliche Auswertung der Bodenrohstoffe, die in ihnen geschieht, eine unterschiedliche Entwicklung? (Oder generieren nur wir in uns und für uns Wertmassstäbe, anhand derer wir ihren Nutzen für uns als "gut" bewerten? Denn es entsteht aus einer faulen Orange doch auch ein Baum, oder?)
Offensichtlich gibt's nicht manch stärkeren Strick (der in die falsche Richtung zerrt) als fremde Frauen. Und Gott sieht eines jeden geheimste Wege.
Eigentlich tät ich ja gern mit diesen Zeichen die Welt verändern. Denn bis jetzt bin ich mit den Gesetzen, die hier herrschen, nicht ganz einverstanden; und ansonsten ein völliger Versager.. (in der Liebe, in der Schule, im Beruf, Militär.. und kein Ende in Sicht). Für ein eignes Haus oder eine Firma hat's bis jetzt auch noch nicht gereicht. Wie alle wissen bin ich geschieden (meine ehemalige Frau hat sich von mir trennen müssen). Fast jeden Tag allein, am Rande der Welt und Gesellschaft dahinvegetierend.. (danach lechzend, aufgenommen zu werden..). Ein armer, komischer Kauz.
Das Unglück Vieler ist mir jetzt in diesen Ferien auch widerfahren: "Es" hat uns in den Ticino verschlagen (später im speziellen nach Agno; Locarno oder Ascona sind ja viel zu teuer, aber gar nicht unbedingt nur noch schöner)!
Als dort so zwischen den einzelnen Häusern Flanierender wollt man jauchzen: Er hat diesen Vielen was für eine wunderbar schöne Wohnstätte (schon hier) bereitet! Nur.. die merken das ja wohl kaum nur.. Eventuell verpasst man doch so manches als Zigeuner..? (..könnt ja noch werden).
Aber zuerst (im Tessin) so allein.. (am Anfang nur; dann kam der Alois auch; wir wollten ja zuerst mal bis aufs ferne ferne Bordeaux hötterlen..; als es aber immer fort regnete, verlor er die Geduld und sattelte seine 1100er Suzuki nach Hause; und dort leutete, gerade als es ankam, das Telefon, und er wurde eingeladen sich vorzustellen; bei der neuen Stelle, die er evtl. antreten möcht).
Hier drückte dann die Einsamkeit wieder neu. Mitten unter so vielen Jungen, mit denen ich eigentlich ja die Sinne glaub schon in vielerlei Weise gemeinsam hätt, und so gern engeren Kontakt hätt.. aber ich kann stets nur zuschaun und bin darüber etwas traurig.. ist denn meine Zeit doch schon vorbei? Nee, nee, .. nee, nee.. aber Selbstmitleid gibt so wohlig warm.
Manche gehn in die Kirche und reden über Jesus; andre gehn ins Zimmerlein und reden mit Jesus.
Eine neue Beschäftigung, die nur ich tun kann, wird in Zukunft evtl. (und in dieser letzten Woche Ferien) einen Grossteil der verbliebenen Zeit brauchen..
Es gibt natürliche (und erlaubte) Wege "dorthin" zu gehn (wen's genauer interessiert, der könnt mich ja fragen). Es ist gesund, schön und nötig auch von dort gelegentlich mal das hier zu bekucken.
Ein nie eintreffender Wunsch oder eine nicht begriffene Belehrung macht u.U. das ganze Leben krank. Möcht Er uns helfen, unsre eignen Seelen nicht zu verführen. Z.B. indem wir uns vor dem Verständnis (oder also vor dem Gewahrsam Gottes) verschliessen.
Siehst Du auch gelegentlich diese gewaltige Moräne, die sich (ganz neben unsrem Mühen) durch die Zeit und auf uns zuschiebt? Diese zermalmende Moräne von Zukunft & Wahrheit.. (sie kommt, sie kommt.. We...?)
Was könnt ich Dir denn wohl bloss erzählen. Du hast ja wahrscheinlich eh schon viel mehr gemerkt, was hier so vor sich geht (um uns, in uns..). Und was für mich gut erschien, ist doch für Dich und andre gar nicht unbedingt auch das Rechte.. Der, welcher Hilfe braucht, bin ich. Natürlich hat das Vorführen nicht auf Anhieb geklappt. Zuerst nimmt ein "Experte" die Stablampe und beurteilt, wie sauber und vor wie langer Zeit der Motor abgedampft wurde. Dann läuft das Öiti über die Unterboden Besichtigungsgrube, durch die Stossdämpfer Prüfstände (schon verständlich, dass man grosse Freude an diesen teuren Anlagen hat) durch die Lichthöhenmessung und schliesslich auf die Bremsenrolle (dieses tun wir willig, weil's halt nun mal so ist, alle 2, 3 Jahre wieder neu; und auch ich selber tu bisweilen all meine alten Fehler willig neu, weil's halt schon mal so gemacht wurde, ging, mehr oder weniger, doch noch..). Die armen (?) Leute dort tun dies jeden Tag neu so. Wenn etwas 1% ausserhalb der Tolerangrenze liegt gibt's keine Chance. Die Grenze ist meistens bei einer schönen, geraden Zahl (10%, 20%,..; niemals 19% oder 11,548%). Hätt zum Beispiel die Lenkung ganz viel Spiel, tät's keinen kümmern; denn das ist nicht im Prüfprogramm. Es wird sich auch nie jemand beschweren. Eine Konkurrenz gibt's auch nicht.
Die Bremsen hinten zogen (nachdem alle Last ausgeladen war und dementsprechend der Lastenregler nachregelte) etwas zu ungleichmässig. Für die Prüfung wurden die Bremsen drum auf "ohne Last" eingestellt (in der Werkstatt tauschten bis dazu einfach beide hinteren Bremstrommeln aus). Auch das Licht zündete so zu hoch (nachher wird's zu tief sein).
Das Licht ist was Wundersames. Es ist in jedem Augenblick neu, sauber, rein; nichts könnte es antasten; wie ein lebendig Ding. Es lässt sich geduldig leiten, werfen,.. ist trotz seiner Kostbarkeit glaub für alle gratis. Mit dem Schall ist's auf eine andre Weise ähnlich.
Dieser Zwischenfall (mit der zweiten nötigen Nachkontrolle) hatte dann (wie so oft) doch aber auch seinen Sinn. Denn während dieses langes zweiten Tages, da die Lasten noch nicht neu zugeladen werden konnten (vor der Nachprüfung) wurde es klar: das arme schwache Lasteselchen trägt normalerweise zuviel, leider nicht ganz unnötigen Balast rum. Die aktuellen Zuladungen sollten nochmals überdacht werden. Überdies wär ein Platz für allfällige Mitbewohner etwas schönes..
Zum Glück (oh wie freu ich mich, dass ich so froh bin) kenn ich noch einige wenige Leute, die sich um mich kümmern (und ich mich, viel zu wenig, um sie). Diese sind zwar völlig andere Menschen und haben ganz andre Hintergründe, Ideale,.. (eigentlich komisch, oder..?). Aber sie sind sooo nötig, wichtig! Ich kenn glaub niemanden mehr mit ähnlicher "Gschicht", ähnlichen (unerfüllten) Wünschen...
Sollte man nicht probieren (ich erwisch mich gelegentlich dabei), sich so klein und unbeschwerlich wie möglich für die Erde zu erhalten?
Die Fahrzeug Prüfung hat jetzt so doch noch geklappt; und auch ich muss tatsächlich gestehen dass einige sehr gute Effekte davon zurückbleiben.. So! Und jetzt bin ich also wieder voll flügge und darf sagen: Ich möcht's nicht anders!
Manche Viruse und Tiere ändern sich stets (und das macht sie so gefährlich, schwer angreifbar und stark)? Aber doch solln wir anders auch fest und unbeweglich sein.
Ein Gottloser hält Gott das entgegen, was der ihn sehen lies.
Mancher trägt mit seinem "Ja Ja" oder mit seinem "nicht Nein" sagen (oder mit seiner Gleichgültigkeit) einen kleinen Beitrag zum stetigen Niedergang bei.
Dass nicht gleich jeder merkt, was für angriffiges Zeug da steht..
Could it ever be possible for any a law to be always right (except for the perfect law of God self-evident)? Why, tell me, why, then, do people say: "The law says it's so and so we gotta do it! There's gotta be a straight line .."? No! Live is winding! It's not good to trust anyone who wants to rule. Just laziness or cowardice usually let us do so. We'd be smarter recalling Haman (Gessler, Sadam,..) who, although he became joyful and with a glad heart when he saw Mordecai in the king's gate, that he did not stand up nor move for him, he was full of fury against Mordecai.. They may be hanged on the wooden gallows that they prepare for others.
Many hours seem to pass just strainedly trying to satisfy higher and not understanding nor righteous public or human powers. We're already used to it, we simply need to... But if the righteous ones would rule there would be joy and happinness for everyone.
And I for myself can acknowledge that we ourselves shouldn't attempt to look that way unchangeable (frequently). But try and begin to learn to let go, to change. We're not pleasing or helping God in fearfully holding anything at all..
And when the turn comes to us to do anything, we have to ask nothing but what we are given. It's fine that it don't take power, prudence, knowledge, sweetness, haste... (but the grace from above) to succeed. We should listen to the spirit that the understanding pours out. Should we effectively ever despise anything? We shall be filled with our own desires, and if not our God delivers us we shall eat the fruits of our own doings. While we call to Him, He will answer, and show us great and inscrutable things which we did not know. And He will bring it, health and healing, and will heal and will show us the riches of peace and truth.
We're kind of sitting on a big pool of thoughts and feelings; it is no wonder at all that "You" know "mine" and "I" sometimes might suspect "Yours".
We're allowed to trust in Jahweh with all our heart, and not to lean to our own understanding. In all our ways to acknowledge Him, and He shall direct our paths. When we go, our steps shall not be narrowed..
I guess, I 'm liable. Even liable to what they once counted our savior liable for, liable to death.
Aber ich habe zu Hause jetzt einen Lautsprecher an die Decke montiert, und der sags mir immer vor dem Schläft gehn: "Ich habe keinen Fehler gemacht, ich habe keinen Fehler gemacht, ich habe keinen Fehler gemacht...
As man began spelling @ the informations (good and bad, wrong and truth information) started to flow. And where much information flows, the chances for misleading and errors are less (as long as people read all the sides; we see many a shit happens because people don't listen, ..anymore; ..keep on pretending their own laws and ways would be right..). To also the spreading of good knowledge prospers and makes us more skillfully, and (as long as our ground grants it) we may yield a better harvest.
An interesting story: "Flood cooled atmosphere in Ice Age" (about global warming):
http://www.infobeat.com/stories/cgi/story.cgi?id=2560385058-e08
Here seems to be primarily a "gone" and a "to come" (shouldnt it be vice versa? mainly a amid?).
Many people have their problem to open up, to let someone else (..) in.
Some other people ... they let too much in.
Our stupid law (sorry, as it now is..; and we gotta change it!), it don't even distinguish between them! It's easy to see that some to powerfull drugs shouldn't be openly accessible (because this would lead to a catastrophe; .. we have some stupid fools). But it's completely wrong to just prohibit in the right place usefull things like MDMA, ...! This could be a help in the therapy for several poor people. For allready enough (perhaps from traumatic experiences in their past) troubled victims and their doctors. And the "forbidden fruit" effect is much to strong.
I could be proud to live in the country where the first who experienced this and the discoverer of it made the note:
April 19, 1943:
Preparation of an 0.05% aqueous solution of d-lysergic acid diethylamide tartrate.
4:20 P.M.:
0.05 cc ingested orally. The solution is tasteless.
4:50 P.M.: no trace of any effect.
5:00 P.M.: slight dizziness, unrest, difficulty in concentration, visual disturbances, marked desire to laugh....
-Albert Hofmann (äääh... Wilhelm Tell)
First tested on experimental animals in 1938 the results were not of sufficient interest from the pharmalogical aspect to the Sandoz staff...
In the course of recrystallizing "only a few centigrams" for analysis, a strange thing happened to Dr. Hofmann (possibly a drop had fallen on his fingers):
"I suddenly became strangely inebriated. The external world became changed as in a dream. Objects appeared to gain in relief; they assumed unusual dimensions; and colors became more glowing. Even self-perception and the sense of time were changed...
As we have to learn, that things don't work as we want, we will start to work . It takes a lot of energy (if it brings results or if not).
Though I'll have three weeks of holidays left now..
Can anyone hide himself in secret places so that God shall not see him? Does He not fill the heavens and earth (and all live to Him)? But all the same we may try to flee from His presence. And we may even give a great fare for it.
So He may hurle a great wind into the sea, so that the ship for our flight is thought to be broken.
And the world may take us up and throw us out into the sea. So the sea ceases from its raging. And we shout: "Strength and hope from Jahweh are gone!" They hear that we sigh; they are glad that He has done it. But He will bring the day that He has called, and they shall be like us. And we cry to God from our distress (it is by Jahweh's kindnesses that we are not destroyed, because His mercies never fail; they are new every morning; great is His faithfulness). If our soul is allowed to it says: "Jahweh is my portion therefore I will hope in Him." It is good for a man that he bear the yoke in his youth. He sits alone and keeps silence because He laid it on him. He puts his mouth in the dust, if perhaps there may be hope. He gives his cheek to Him who strikes him; he is filled with reproach. For the Lord will not cast off forever; for though He causes grief, yet He will have pity according to the multitude of His kindnesses. For He does not afflict from His heart, nor does He grieve the sons of men. And He answers us.
Return us to You, O Jahweh, and we will turn; renew our days as of old, unless You have utterly rejected us; You are very angry against us..
Why do people seek "anywhere"?
Essentially man? The girls seem to be "already there"? Or they try to build a home and what they need is someone good (strong, mighty) who truly guesses to do right (it ain't the time for adventure). They read a book instead (please.. choose this one here ! And isn't the world wide web, as a big book?).
Is it a lack of love, or a missing of awareness of God? Or has He made us just like and for that?
Let's go a bit apart of the great stream of crowds. For there she is: Mercy! The one nobody wanted and no one counted worthy. But the only way.
Sometimes it's difficult to do it right simply because the borderline is quiet feable and thin.
Hopefully I don't bore You when I just briefly mention that..
This prophet then had understanding of his vision. In those days he was mourning three full weeks. He ate no food for delight, neither came flesh nor wine in his mouth, nor did he anoint himself at all, until three whole weeks were fulfilled.
And as he was by the side of the great river, which is Tigris, then he lifted up his eyes and looked, and behold, a certain man was clothed in linen, whose loins were girded with fine gold. His body also was like the beryl, and his face looked like lightning. And his eyes were like lamps of fire, and his arms and his feet in color were like polished bronze, and the voice of his words like the sound of a multitude.
But the men who were with this prophet did not see the vision; but a great quaking fell on them, so that they fled to hide themselves. Therefore he was left alone, and there remained no strength in him. For his beauty was turned within him to corruption. Yet he heard the voice of the man's words; and he was in a deep sleep, and his face was toward the ground. And a hand touched him, which set him shaking on knees and the palms of the hands.
And the man in the vision said to him: O man greatly beloved, understand the words that I speak to you, and stand upright. For to you I am now sent. And when he had spoken this word to him, the prophet stood trembling.
Then he said to him: Do not fear; for from the first day that you set your heart to understand and to chasten yourself before your God, your words were heard. And I have come for your words. But another ruler (which means an angel) withstood me twenty-one days (remember his days of fasting?).. Now I have come to make you understand what shall happen to your people in the latter days. For the vision is yet for many days.
And when he had spoken such words to him, the prophet bowed the face toward the ground, and became dumb. And behold, one looking like the sons of men touched his lips. Then he opened his mouth and spoke... see Daniel (which means: "God is judge") 11&12.
Jahweh showed Moses all the land saying, I will give it to your seed. I have caused you to see it with your eyes, but you shall not go over there. And Moses the servant of Jahweh died there in the land of Moab, according to the word of Jahweh. And He (God) buried him in a valley. But no man knows of his grave this day. And Moses was a hundred and twenty years old when he died. His eye was not dim, nor had he lost any of his natural strength. And Joshua (Jesus) the son of Nun was full of the spirit of wisdom, for Moses had laid his hands on him..
God can.. prepare a plant for us in order to deliver us from our misery. And we then rejoice with great joy over the plant.
But God may also prepare a worm as the morning dawnes the next day. And it strucks the plant, and it witheres. And it happenes when the sun shines, God ordaines a scorching east wind. And the sun beats on our head, so that we faint. And we ask for our life to die.
But we can see so many so beautiful women, and they seem to be and look so good, and fit for life.. (telling and showing us how to do)!
By these (as an understanding prophet we see this plant, these friendly, from God greatly beloved women, and Moses, who couldn't enter the land because of his unbelieve.. You surely do me the favour and laugh at me..) He may dearly and clearly show us that we don't have to "be there". And we sing together with these women and mothers: we are or could or would be already there if we'd just trust and leave it to Him.. and how easily do we fall in any a cramp in our head.. and how much deeper, and how much more funny, sweeter, heavier is it here!
(hear from you..)
A dream may end (and we may thank our lucky stars; because what's to come round instead is quiet a better happiness, and nay bring good luck....). It's the truth!
But a dream can also point to a truth, so that the living may know what the Most High wants them to know.
Daniel had a dream and visions of his head on his bed. Then he wrote the dream and gave the sum of the matters. Daniel spoke and said, In my vision by night I was looking: and behold, the four winds of the heavens were stirring up the Great Sea. And four great beasts came up from the sea, different from one another. The first was like a lion and had eagle's wings. I watched until its wings were plucked, and it was lifted up from the earth and made to stand on its feet like a man. And a man's heart was given to it. And behold another beast, a second, like a bear. And it raised itself up on one side, and it had three ribs in its mouth between its teeth. And they said this to it: Arise, eat up much flesh. After this I saw, and lo, another, like a leopard, which had four wings of a bird on its back. The beast also had four heads; and rulership was given to it. After this I looked in the night visions, and behold, a fourth beast, fearful and terrible, and very strong. And it had great iron teeth; it devoured and broke in pieces, and stamped the rest with its feet. And it was different from all the beasts before it; and it had ten horns. I was thinking about the horns, and behold, there came up among them another little horn, before whom three of the first horns were uprooted. And behold, in this horn were eyes like the eyes of man, and a mouth speaking great things. I watched until the thrones were thrown up, and the Ancient of Days sat, whose robe was white as snow, and the hair of His head like the pure wool. His throne was like flames of fire, and His wheels like burning fire. A stream of fire went out and came out from before Him. A thousand thousands served Him, and ten thousand times ten thousand stood before Him. The judgment was set, and the books were opened. Then I was looking because of the voice of the great words which the horn spoke. I watched until the beast was slain, and his body was destroyed and given to the burning flame. And the rest of the beasts, their dominion was taken away. Yet their lives were made longer for a season and time. I saw in the night visions, and behold, One like the Son of man came with the clouds of heaven, and came to the Ancient of Days, and they brought Him near before Him. And dominion and glory was given Him, and a kingdom, that all peoples, nations and languages, should serve Him. His dominion is an everlasting dominion which shall not pass away, and His kingdom that which shall not be destroyed.
Daniel was distressed in his spirit in its sheath, and the visions of his head troubled him. And he came near one of those who stood by, and asked him the truth of all this. So he told him, and made him know the meaning of the things:
These four great beasts are four kings; they shall arise out of the earth. But the saints of the Most High shall take the kingdom and possess the kingdom forever, even forever and ever.
Then Daniel wanted to know the truth of the fourth beast, which was different from all the others, very frightening, whose teeth were of iron, and his nails of bronze; who devoured, broke in pieces, and stamped the rest with his feet; and of the ten horns that were in his head, and of the other which came up, and before whom three fell; even of that horn that had eyes, and a mouth speaking very great things, whose look was greater than his fellows. He watched, and that horn made war with the saints and overcame them until the Ancient of Days came, and judgment was given to the saints of the Most High. And the time came that the saints possessed the kingdom.
And the one of them that stood by said:
The fourth beast shall be the fourth kingdom on earth, which shall be different from all kingdoms and shall devour the whole earth, and shall trample it and crush it. And the ten horns out of this kingdom are ten kings that shall arise. And another shall arise after them. And he shall be different from the first, and he shall humble three kings. And he shall speak words against the Most High, and shall wear out the saints of the Most High, and plot to change times and laws. And they shall be given into his hand until a time and times and one-half time. But the judgment shall sit, and they shall take away his rulership, to cut off and to destroy until the end. And the kingdom and rulership, and the greatness of the kingdom under all the heavens, shall be given to the people of the saints of the Most High, whose kingdom is an everlasting kingdom. And all kingdoms shall serve and obey Him.
Here is the end of the matter.
As for Daniel, his thoughts troubled him much, and his face changed on him. But he kept the matter in his heart.
You may correct me when I say: The winds of the heavens are the spirits there and the great sea is the sea of all of us, the people. The beasts are: Babylon (at that time he had the dream), Persia (quiet savage), Greece (later divided into four parts) and the Romans (which still are here and in another, different form shall rise again..).
He was to learn that God gives the kingdom to whomever He wants, and sets up over it the lowest of men.
Having read this now what do you think about that guy which described the coming down from a manmade Icarus ascending in his message?
Buuuuhh, buuuuhh!!...
Yes! He received it again (what he for sure had lost). But nobody ever could tell, how much more he would have gained by staying on this ground (we just guessed that there where he was he may have gained nothing). Some people, former friends, just don't talk with him anymore (perhaps they claim this the best way to get'em back on their ground again) .
The things and occurrences which meet us must all be by permission of God; or even of Him! To show us something. Not only what we may think about now. But also all our shared thoughts.. and our whole experienced world.. Is what we are and have to do just what we wonna do? Could it be like that? (So we haven't made it till it shall be so). Or do we say in the morning: Oh that it were evening! And at evening: Oh that it were morning, for the fear of our heart with which we fear, and for the sight of our eyes, which we see. Look all across the planet: there's always something that's disturbing. I never really enjoyed or thought it'd be fun to go to a hotel somewhere and waste time and money for a few weeks (ecxept by Your side).
Every night we gotta admit: We're just quiet week.... and have to go to bed again. But in the days we'll claim to be so invincible strong. Aren't we as the blind one (to whom Jesus said, while he asked Him: Receive your sight! Your faith has saved you. And immediately he received his sight and followed Him, glorifying God. And when they saw, all the people gave praise to God. For never anybody gave the sight to anyone who was blind from the birth. But they were told that the Messiah would do this.)? Many people rather defense their point of view then to learn anything. Will we keep on pretending to be so natural... after having brushed our remaining tooth with "Elmex" and cleaned our ass with recycling paper? I say this just because of those who really seem to guess that only green grass could be granted from God.
We know: The roses are those plants with this horrible long thorns.
Didn't You ever feel as Jeremiah:
Cursed is the day in which I was born; let not the day in which my mother bore me be blessed. Cursed is the man who brought news to my father, saying, A child is born to you; making him very glad. And let that man hear the cry in the morning, and the shouting at noontide; because he did not kill me from the womb; or that my mother might have been my grave. Why did I come forth from the womb to see labor and sorrow, that my days should be consumed in shame?
The secret things belong to Jahweh our God.
What he commanded is not hidden from us, neither is it far off. It is not in Heaven, that we should say, Who shall go up for us to Heaven, and bring it to us, so that we may hear it and do it? But the word is very near for us , in our mouth and our heart, so that we may do it.
Lieber Kurt ich würde gerne die theologischen Aspekte Deiner Hp in meiner Hp einarbeiten. Was meinst Du dazu? Am Besten wäre es, wenn Du mir diese auf Deutsch Uebersetzen würdest.
Schoeni Ferieae
HP
Ganz weiss ich ja zwar noch nicht, wie Du Dir das vorstellst aber..
Die Zeit wird (trotz den Ferien) knapp sein.
Wie wär's mit nur einem Link (z.B.: "für Problemkinder") oder mit dieser klaren, wohlklingenden englischen Sprache? (Hast Du mehr deutsche Besucher, die Englisch nicht verstehen?)
Wir werden's sehen..
Mit Dank für Deine Meldung aus der tiefen Nacht hier neben der Aare (wiedermal sooo müde..)..
Ganz weiss ich ja zwar noch nicht, wie Du Dir das vorstellst aber..
Die Zeit wird (trotz den Ferien) knapp sein.
Wie wär's mit nur einem Link (z.B.: "für Problemkinder") oder mit dieser klaren, wohlklingenden englischen Sprache? (Hast Du mehr deutsche Besucher, die Englisch nicht verstehen?)
Wir werden's sehen..
Mit Dank für Deine Meldung aus der tiefen Nacht hier neben der Aare (wiedermal sooo müde..)..
Who can shout thanks to God properly? For what You grant us, oh good God, I really thank You!!
It sometimes seems to me, like I've done and do something completely wrong. Why am I one of them who just have to be so alone allday? And they really got no chance. A wheel is of the sadest things on earth (it always spins on and on but cant ever prosper, don't even feel anything). I can't ever arrange my mind. But don't I have to try on and on? She (and not only she) always wants me to take it easy..! She thinks I'm boring. Or as she sees me coming, she warily grips her weapons.
As there's not many work to do, the weather completely fine, thoughts may rise..
And if I open?... Fetch this small paper?... (God is greater anyway..!!!! And those real ugly big man in authority: would they do these wrong deeds, if...?)
Don't ask what we're about to see (hahahahaha...).
It takes only a little bit of the right wisdom to live on this (His) beauuuutiful planet. It surely takes much love (love of our Creator for us; and love of us toward each other). It don't take ... (only if it could give You any of that wisdom; and does it? Is it a remedy for or a remedy against life, btw..? Cause this is what I lack: a remedy against all that live around. And then, the next day? Come down! .....Yiiiiaaaaahhhahaaaa!! You little shit! And one day even later: Dead! Only an empty shell! No flame of live inside anymore... Slowly, at the very start of it all again.... How would it have kept on being without it? Did it really take something invisible away? Or is it just because there was rather no sleep and nearly no food?.. Now, another day later: the first signs of live (as we called it) returning! And it may come fast again; to it's old values?? Still the feeling is a little bit strange in the own body... Gutted... And if it took at all something, would it have been worth being kept? A part of the old problems aren't here anymore, or at least seen in another light, from another level of awareness. Will they come again? I think so. For sure. Today. Will I do it again? I think so, yes. ....Another day later: I'm kind of cool, numb. Allaround it's grey, dry (although it rains). In the morning I was frightened a few times. I'm longing not so much only for love anymore; but to go up there again? (and fall down again?.. oh no! I don't think so anymore!). As the evening came I was over it again.. (yea!?). And the same old circumstances (almost? only almost...). Two days later: with unexpected power all the old troubles are back again looking for things that aren't here instead of seeing, enjoying and thank for (which means: aware) the ones around! But it may be, that I've gained something.. will it last? It don't take much food (it don't need much of almost anything, but just a little bit).
The thing which always works, and I'm absorbing it like a dry paper the water: to pray to God!! to read the bible, to play the flute..
We're gonna season this soup, or knead the dough, each a little bit, in this or that way. The cake called earth smells and glows.. so sweeeeet! Every kind of live grows on it!
Let's see the truth. It reveals everything, .. as it is! It's as a white light. It's not great! Only as it is! But everything, all the sides, colors.. It's not only beautiful; it's not only ugly. Just as it is! And it's quiet healthy. We might like the red or pink light more, but: He who blesses himself in the earth shall (once?) bless himself in the God of truth.
How could we serve a God, who already knows our whole live (better than we ourselves) before we did it, and who even created us? It shall come: before we call He will answer; and while we are still speaking, He will hear.
O dear God, why have You made us wander from Your ways. You harden our heart from Your fear? Righteous are You, O God (that I might contend with You); yet let me speak with You about Your judgments. Why does the way of the wicked prosper? Why are all those happy who deal treacherously? You have planted them; yea, they take root. They grow, yea, they make fruit. You are near in their mouth and far from their reins, from their conscience. That which is highly esteemed among men is abomination in the sight of God. Those who forsake Him, prepare a table for Fortune, and furnish the drink offering to Fate.
He said: I am sought by those who asked not for Me; I am found by those who did not seek Me.
But we are all as the unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as a menstruous cloth. And we all fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away. But now, O God, You are our Father; we are the clay, and You are our Former; and we all are the work of Your hand. Do not be grievously angry, nor remember iniquity forever. Behold! Look; all of us we are Your creation. We feel as a vessel of the house of God, which the king of babylon carried to the house of his god...
So says Jahweh, Heaven is My throne, and earth My footstool. Where, then, is the house that you build for Me? And where is the place of My rest? For all those My hand has made, and all those exist, says Jahweh. But to this one I will look, to the afflicted and contrite spirit, and the one who trembles at My word. ... Hear the word of Jahweh, you who tremble at His word; your brothers who hated you, who cast you out for My name's sake, said, Let Jahweh be glorified. But He will appear to your joy, and they will be ashamed.. ..In that day... Whoever shall seek to save his life shall lose it, and whoever shall lose his life shall preserve it. In that night there shall be two in one bed, the one shall be taken, and the other shall be left.
We might pray for the mercies of God in Heaven concerning any secret.
Then the secret will be revealed. There is a God in Heaven who reveals secrets. He reveals the deep and secret things; He knows what is in the darkness, and the light dwells with Him. We thank Him, and praise Him, our God, who has given us wisdom, and have made known to us now what we asked of Him. It is always right to pray, and not to faint. He will avenge us speedily. Dear God, be merciful to me, a sinner!
A part of His words:
When you loan a loan of any kind to your brother, you shall not go into his house to bring forth his pledge. When you gather the grapes from your vineyard, you shall not glean afterward. It shall be for the stranger, for the fatherless, and for the widow. And you shall remember that you were a slave in the land of Egypt. Therefore I command you to do this thing.
Cursed is the man who trusts in man, and makes flesh his arm.
Blessed is the man who trusts in Jahweh.
For he shall be like a tree planted by the waters; it sends out its roots by the river, and it shall not fear when the heat comes, but its foliage shall be green; and he is not worried in the year of drought, nor will it cease from yielding fruit.
The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked; who can know it?
God searches our hearts....
The dwarf hamsters just have young ones. Could one easily ever hear anything more affectionate? They cheep and feep on and on. They still know, how marvelous everything is. Life is so incomprehensible. It makes "Schnipps" and everything crawls, struggles..! And nevertheless it's terrible: some of them perhaps will not make it through. And their mother is so proud upon them!
We shall rejoice in all that we put our hand to.
Ain't it hard to see for me: I probably can't ever give You, or be for You what you'd really need.. You are surely so extremely sweet, ..it's frightful just to look at you (I suppose you just don't know) and what I'd really need to give and receive from You is tenderness, to touch You...
If we dont fear God, He keeps being silent, even from forever.
We may listen to Him in His word (and this word represents, shows Him; not our religion; religion was the reason why Kain killed Abel..).
Jesus teaches us:
Not even Solomon in all his glory was arrayed like one of these lilies.
And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his stature?
The ravens do neither sow nor reap, having neither storehouse nor barn, and God feeds them. We're not to be anxious to our life, what we shall eat; nor for our body, what we shall put on. Life is more than food, and the body is more than clothing.
And looking at this fine created body I gotta say: I'm so glad and thankful to be Superman! Isn't men colossal! Look at how he subdues the earth!
Maybe You'll think of my speaking: He talks as if ever everything went as he brought it about.
As we see anything, any event; perhaps a human, maybe a Circus-Girl: She, or it, carves herself, even as lucky, as funny as she once, then, was, when we had seen her, in our memory. And it stays there, it remains even as it once, then, was; already long ago... Even if the Circus-Girl would had become a housewife meanwhile. It lives on, only there, in our hearts, just as it then, once was .. makes us happy, warm... or whatever it makes us.
So there is an unique, big world about to be built.. through our experiences.. in our hearts, in ourselves, only.. (isn't it?).
And: So says the high and lofty One (through his word to us) who inhabits eternity; whose name is Holy: I dwell in the high and holy place, even with the contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite ones. Behold, you fast for strife and debate, and to strike with the fist of wickedness; you shall not fast as you do today, to make your voice to be heard on high. Is it such a fast that I have chosen? A day for a man to afflict his soul? Is it to bow down his head like a bulrush, and to spread sackcloth and ashes under him? Will you call this a fast and a day pleasing to Jahweh? Is not this the fast that I have chosen? To loose the bands of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed ones go free, and that you break every yoke? Is it not to break your bread to the hungry, and that you should bring home the wandering poor? When will you see the naked and cover him; and you will not hide yourself from your own flesh? Then shall your light break out as the dawn, and your health shall spring out quickly; and your righteousness shall go before you; the glory of Jahweh shall gather you. Then you shall call, and Jahweh shall answer; you shall cry, and He shall say, Here I am. If you take the yoke away from among you, the pointing of the finger, and speaking vanity; and if you draw out your soul to the hungry, and satisfy the afflicted soul; then shall your light rise in darkness, and your darkness shall be as the noonday. And Jahweh shall always guide you and satisfy your soul in dry places, and make your bones fat; and you shall be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water whose waters fail not.
But truth has fallen in the street, and right cannot enter. Yea, truth fails; and he who departs from evil makes himself a prey. And God saw, and it displeased Him that there was no judgment. Behold, God's hand is not shortened so that it cannot save, nor is His ear heavy so that it cannot hear. But our iniquities have come between us and our God, and our sins have hidden His face from us, from hearing. We grope for the wall like the blind, and we grope as if we had no eyes. We stumble at noonday as in the night; we are in deserted places like dead men. We all roar like bears, and mourn grievously like doves; we look for judgment, but none; for salvation, but it is far off from us. For our transgressions are multiplied before You, and our sins testify against us. For our transgressions are with us; and as for our iniquities, we know them; in transgressing and lying against Jahweh, and going away from our God, talking cruelty and revolt, conceiving and speaking from the heart words of falsehood.
We like to do "anything" instead of what is needed. Also hypocrisy has already a long time and still does be a main problem of men. Do not let the wise glory in his wisdom, nor let the mighty glory in his might; do not let the rich glory in his riches; but let him who glories glory in this, that he understands and knows Jahweh, doing kindness, judgment, and righteousness, in the earth; for in these He delights, says God.
(They are not mighty for the truth on the earth..)
Two times five laws on two tables; one table concerning our behavior beyond each other, and one for our relation to God. All the things He commands us to do, we ought to be careful to do it. But we shall not add to it, nor take away from it. Today we shall not eat the blood and shall not be fornicators.
Else... what will we do at the end of it?
As we go with our adversary to the judge, we shall give pains in the way to be set free from him, lest he drags us to the judge, and the judge deliver us to the officer, and the officer cast us into the prison.
Am I not just another one who made it through the soup till today (and in the soup once), and who found mercy by his mother?
Everyone turned to their own courses, their own way, as the horse rushes into the battle. God is very gentle toward us. As one is once quiet tender to a horse it'll not forget him (as it would be made for us to ride; surely, I know only the domesticated horses).
There's not many a thing going easier and more deeply into the inward parts of men then music (at least for my bowels; I know there are the ones to propose football). An unheard melody can be a strong tower for a soul (look at me, and I'll tell You what a tune you pipe). There's constantly something ringing in me. Music helps kings to their authority (not only the good ones). There are every new second growing so many new, sweet, powerful tunes ..the best ones from You and me. You may have exspected me to blow an Alphorn and tear and press a Schwyzerörgeli... I only made it to flute and banjo.
Yes, there are a few women I do love desperately till the..
But most of them make me (not just sad but) regretfully cry (does this have to be so?). But, wow, now I found one maid that experienced similar ways (of another kind). She lives just around the corner (overseas). I've never seen Her or heard Her voice, but I hope I love Her. So I'm allowed to write for her many many letters. Her speech isn't the German. So as at all (due to the total amount of time we have received) it's better writing Grutschmähüü ..ääh, English also here.
I'm often that way deadly tired.
Do not rejoice, oh all You oppressors, because:
He has anointed One to preach the Gospel to the poor; He has sent One to bind up the broken-hearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound, to preach the acceptable year of Jahweh and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all who mourn...
When He, who invited us, comes, may He find us being in the lowest place and say: Friend, go up higher. (For whoever exalts himself shall be abased, and he who humbles himself shall be exalted.)
We shall not multiply wives to ourself, so that our heart does not turn away. Nor shall we greatly multiply silver and gold to ourself.
Is the only frontier how much we could take? (Hoping it wont last to long so we could take some more).
The gods who have not made the heavens and the earth, they shall perish from the earth and from under these heavens.
Every man is stupid for lack of knowledge but... I know that the way of man does not belong to man; it is not in man who walks to direct his steps.
O God, correct me, but with judgment; not in Your anger, lest You bring me to nothing.
Sometimes it looks like the good times would be here only to show us that bad times are better for me. And the bad times are here to go through (to the good times). Our healing, we just gotta (and only can) let it happen. Time, live going by is and brings healing (unfortunately not always only..)
Goodbye to all of You and have a sunshiny time full of love and blessings from God..
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Bei etwaigen Speech-Problems:
http://babelfish.altavista.com (da gibt's dann sogar noch was zu lachen).
Wir wollen mehr! Mehr gut sein, mehr besitzen.. (bloss nicht mehr Arbeit oder Schmerz). Versäumen wir nicht (auch damit) das Neue? Und was wir verlängern wollten, vergeht trotzdem (nur ist's uns noch bewusster). Gott hat evtl. mehr und will drum gar nicht, dass ein einmal Bekommenes von uns nicht losgelassen wird?
The light of the body is the eye. Therefore when our eye is sound, our whole body also is full of light. But when our eye is evil, our body also is full of darkness. Therefore let's take heed that the light in us is not darkness. Therefore if our whole body is full of light, having no part dark, the whole shall be full of light, as when the shining of a lamp enlightens us. And we should keep ourselves from covetousness. For a man's life is not in the abundance of the things which he possesses.
God's house shall be called a house of prayer for all peoples..
Wir setzen uns ja gegenseitig bisweilen schon schön zu mit unsrer eignen Mühsal. Je schlechter einer eh schon zwäg ist, je mehr bekommt er's, dann zu spüren. Es ist zum innig, bitterlich weinen, zu sehn, wie andere, von denen ich wirklich nicht weiss, was an ihnen besser sein soll, (allgemein geachtet werden und) die wundervollsten, besten Frauen umherführen dürfen (Mehrzahl?). Denk ich dran, möcht ich schlichtweg aufgeben, aufhören.. (es müsst mir ja egal sein, wär nicht eine davon vielleicht meine gewesen, oder wär sonst noch jemand da..; und zu Gott soll ich ja offensichtlich grad auch nicht gehn? denn sonst tät er mir ja helfen).
Und es ist zum Kotzen, unter Führungskräften zu leiden zu müssen, die andre, als ihre selbstauferlegte Strafe, einsetzen (und behalten).
Doch..! Sein Wort ist das einzig wahre, noch funktionierende Heilmittel.
Have we spoken and done all the evil things we could do?
God, who does not respect persons calls:
Ho, everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and he who has no money, come, buy and eat. Yea, come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. Why do you weigh silver for what is not bread? and your labor for what never satisfies? Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good, and let your soul delight itself in fatness. Bow down your ear, and come to Me; hear, and your soul shall live; seek Jahweh while He may be found; call on Him while He is near. Let the wicked forsake His way, and the unrighteous man His thoughts; and let him return to Jahweh, and He will have mercy on him; and to our God, for He will abundantly pardon. For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor your ways My ways, says Jahweh.For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts. For as the rain comes down, and the snow from the heavens, and does not return there, but waters the earth, and makes it bring out and bud, and give seed to the sower and bread to the eater; so shall My word be, which goes out of My mouth; it shall not return to Me void, but it shall accomplish what I please, and it shall certainly do what I sent it to do.
For this is as the waters of Noah to Me; for as I swore that the waters of Noah should no more go over the earth, so I have sworn from being angry with you and from rebuking you. And all your sons shall be taught of Jahweh; and great shall be the peace of your sons. Behold, I have created the smith who blows the coals in the fire, and who brings out a tool for his work; and I have created the waster to destroy. No weapon that is formed against you shall be blessed; and every tongue that shall rise against you in judgment, you shall condemn.
They load men with burdens grievous to be carried, and themselves do not touch the burdens with one of their fingers. They have taken away the key of knowledge. they did not enter in and have hindered those who were entering.
And they began to be terribly angry, lying in ambush for Him (Jesus), and seeking to catch something out of His mouth, so that they might accuse Him.
Auch nach den schlimmsten Tagen: am Abend kann wieder alles i.0. sein..