We learned the hard way to take every audition for what it's worth, and then get on with your life. As somebody else posted, it's out of your hands now, dear, and there are sooooooooooo many, many variables in putting everybody together for the best "look" on the stage. Be proud of how far you got. I think that's totally awesome! To even be impatient with decisions is awesome, as so many were turned away early on and don't even have the "burden" of waiting!
If it's meant to be it's going to happen. If not, keep going.....but you just never know. It seems in my two dd's lives, that they got cast and got cast BIG when they "let it go" after the audition.
In any case, though, we're routing for you and hoping your dream comes true!