Well, it's actually been 18 years since I first heard of hydrocephalus, and it's been a very educuational journey. This is the first surgery I am going into with eyes wide open. I am confident in my doctors and staff. I'm confident my body can handle the operation and I'm confident in the decision to insert a programmable shunt. It's what I've requested 14 years ago.
I think it's great that I only have to survive this one last weekend with my thoughts. No matter what, I know I am making the right decision to have this surgery.
I will not bypass the fact that anything can happen. I know there is always the chance that something can go wrong. Especially since I have a doctor induced stroke in my history, it stays in my mind.
My attitude at this point is this. It took the doctors 14 years to believe I had a problem. I lived what life I could during that time and am happy with what I've accomplished. I am now looking forward to a new phase where I might gain some of my enjoyment from life back.