maybe disapearing for awhile. Matt, whom I swore loved me and I trusted in his love for me, is now leaving me. I'm not good enough for him. I'm holding him back from the experiences he wants to have. I love Matt. I adore him. This is as killer as losing Mom. I thought I heard Mom's voice this morning. Then I folded her clothes when I was doing laundry. I miss her so much. Then Matt told me he was leaving me because the magic was gone and he wanted to be happy. I pray that the house explodes with me and all my animals in it tonight. I don't want to live anymore. I've had enough. I can't kill myself. There's no acceptable justification for it. I just pray God takes me tonight. Please, just end it for me.
Plesse, I need prayer. I'm came so close to happiness. I really wanted to become a nudist. Now, I'm swamped with reality that Matt doesn't love me. He sure lied really well. I love him.
Boy!! Oh!! Boy!! The Devil has surely dealt you a horrible, horrible blow from your blind side. I'd like to tell you that I have 'the perfect words of comfort'. I don't. Rest assured that JESUS Loves you more than can ever be imagined. HE alone can comfort your heart. DON'T LET GO OF THAT!!!!
There are many of us on this Forum who Love you through the Holy Spirit. Please don't disappear. You know what true Love is. You have read the Song of Solomon.
Carla, we need you!! There is not another Carla. I have seen such progress in such a short time. Please don't go backwards.
I don't know how old you are, but don't take your life over this! This is what Satan wishes for you to do.
You've still got so much to live for. God loves you and provides for your every single need. Suicide is wrong, because it will rob you of any joy, productivity and meaning that your life is destined to take on.
Like the others say - just hang in there. Remember the pain that Jesus went through on the cross and with the help of the Father he rose above it? You too can do the same if you believe. God will grant you anything - ask and you shall receive.
Carla
Don't let one persons insenitivity stuff you up! The "magic" is still there Jesus is still with you and will always be so as long as you can reach out to him he will support you. If my wife were to leave I would also be devastated but I hope Jesus would carry me. (Not that I think she will at the moment and I hope she never hears that I have said she might-Polynesian women are some thing when angry) Oops I think I better shut up before I get my foot too far into my mouth!!!!
Tevita
Carla, while I check this forum often, I seldom contribute. I know that you have to be hurting in ways right now that I cannot conceive. I know from you writing, including you blog, that you are an intelligent and thoughtful person with a strong faith.
When an emotional hurt like this comes along, especially on top of the loss of mom, thoughts can almost get in the way. This is the time to just allow your heavenly Father to wrap you in His Love. While you will have to continue to function day to day and there will be many practical things you will have to deal with, stay focused on the One who loves you unconditionally.
You are in our prayers. I pray that you will feel the imbrace of the Comforter. Find some another women to share this situation with who will support you in love and help to protect you from biterness.
Carla, there are many here who care for you and who reach out to you in this time of desperate hurt.
Do you have access to a licensed counselor? If so I strongly hope that you make use of that service. It would be best if you and Matt could go together, but if he will not there can still be great benefit for you in going alone.
Another alternative is that sometimes there are pastors with the appropriate training to do helpful counseling. Be a bit careful if you choose this route, as too often pastors will attempt counseling without having prepared themselves to be helpful rather than hurtful.
