Jerry, I can understand that. I somehow knew God was with me when I had my "carnal moments" in life. And I guess thats what makes hell. We are in God's presence and God is with us, yet we live our lives as if God is not, yet there He is, standing there, right with us, day and night.
Annoying ain't it??
Yet comforting. My wife and I discussed our childhood when we felt that presence of God, even though we really didn't know who or what He was. I think children understand and feels God's presence a lot better than adults do. Maybe that is why Jesus said to become like little children.
I was going over that book again this morning, (The Great Dance) and I was comparing in my mind a party that we are invited to.
We are invited to a party by a friend, but when we get there, we find that we don't know anyone there! Yet the host and hostess invites us in as if they know us, even though they don't. Why would the host and hostess treat us like friends and family and a party invitee if they don't know us? It's because of our friend. Our friend invites us, so we are automatically welcomed. We are not a party crasher, or as Jesus put it, coming in through a window.
Because of Jesus, the son, we are welcomed to the Big Party that the Father and Holy Spirit (Host and Hostess for an earthly term) is throwing for humanity. All of humanity is invited and is welcomed because of Jesus Christ. We just got to let them know it, pass out the invitation that everyone is welcomed.
But when we arrived at the party, we sit like wallflowers refusing to take part in it. We refuse to enjoy the food, the fellowship, the love. The Father, Son and Holy Spirit is sharing their love for one another with humanity, yet we sit there, creating our own little world and party off to one side. We are still at the party, but are miserable, because we refuse to participate and understand. We make rules, don't dance, don't drink, don't eat the good food, don't loosen our tie. We are in hell of our own making.
That is what the story of the Prodigal son is about. The son represents the world and the Father represents God who is watching and waiting. The worldly and foolish son didn't even have time to confess his sin, the Father saw him coming and ran and threw himself around the son, demanding the best for him from his servants. But the son who followed the rules, worked side by side with the father, was annoyed and angered when he found out a party was going on inside without his consent! The "good" son, (Christians) went to church every week, served as deacon, gave to the poor and tithed and gave generously. He worked the field and did his evangelistic thing, yet felt jaded when he found out his "worldly brother" was having a party by the Father and the whole household!
Join the party! God is having a great time, the son is inviting the world and we are there right now! So lets enjoy the presence of God in our lives right now! And may our fellow Christians enjoy the party too, in spite of the sinful people they see walking up being wrapped by the Father with the cloak of the holy spirit in his perfect love.
Boyd