And so it goes

Well the holidays have come and gone and, as I promised Steve, I have re-evaluated my relationship with the old flame. I think its going to be filed back with the “that was nice but not quite right” category.

Actually everything was fine right through the first of December. He then had a talk with our mutual friend (who also happens to be the ding dong who set him up with his two ex wives) and told him what was going on with us. Ding Dong then tells him he’s not ready for a serious relationship (who was asking him to be in one right now? Certainly not me.). Ding Dong then calls me and lectures me about the whole thing. I tried explaining that I am putting no pressure on anyone for this to be serious. I have my own life to deal with and it is just beyond my abilities right now to figure out how I could make something long term, as in commitment, work right now. I was happy spending time with the guy a couple times a month and talking on the phone a few times a week.

Then the ice storm hit and screwed up so many things. Then there was the holidays - his first as a single guy again. Then I left for Colorado and he got sick. We didn’t talk. We didn’t see each other. I stopped getting phone calls and messages telling me he missed me. He stopped trying to make it a priority to see me, even occasionally (I still have his Christmas present - cigars and port - because I haven’t seen him). When I asked why the change in temperature, he told me that he thought he’d made it clear that he wasn’t ready for a commitment. Again, who asked him to be? Just because he proposed to the two ex wives after 6 months does not mean that’s what I am waiting for. If he had even gotten close to mentioning it, I would have laughed out loud. But he hurt my feelings and still seems completely clueless, so I think I’m done.

I had a job interview yesterday. He knew about it and told me good luck. But he never called last night to ask how it went. My birthday is this weekend and he knows it. If he doesn’t come up with something befitting the respect and recognition I deserve, he-e-e-e-e’s OUTTA HERE!

Thanks for listening. I needed to vent.