resistance

i hide inside of a shell
the things you want to know i wont tell
i try to calmly explain but can only yell
i'm sorry if i have put you though hell
but i just cant to seem to break this spell
but know your words clearly ring in my mind as a bell

i just keep fading out
my thoughts are filled with doubt

understand my love for you is pure and true
but there are things about me you never knew
i'm sorry if i have ever hurt you
but i just don't know what to do
and it does make me feel blue
that this thick haze i cant see through

the messages to me you told
i will forever by my heart closely hold
i admire the way you stand bold
against the harshness of a society that's grown cold

i try to grasp reality
but a embraced by visions of creativity

i try to surround myself with better things
but the unwanted emotions take hold of my thinking
the only thing that helped it stop was the drinking
but the when i grab a bottle its your words ringing

i fell into a hole
and let these things take control