i hide inside of a shell
the things you want to know i wont tell
i try to calmly explain but can only yell
i'm sorry if i have put you though hell
but i just cant to seem to break this spell
but know your words clearly ring in my mind as a bell
i just keep fading out
my thoughts are filled with doubt
understand my love for you is pure and true
but there are things about me you never knew
i'm sorry if i have ever hurt you
but i just don't know what to do
and it does make me feel blue
that this thick haze i cant see through
the messages to me you told
i will forever by my heart closely hold
i admire the way you stand bold
against the harshness of a society that's grown cold
i try to grasp reality
but a embraced by visions of creativity
i try to surround myself with better things
but the unwanted emotions take hold of my thinking
the only thing that helped it stop was the drinking
but the when i grab a bottle its your words ringing
i fell into a hole
and let these things take control
internal conflict you are going through, try harder, surely you are stronger than this, you can make it...think of the goal..think of your destination...surely that will spur you on.
is i have no destination, nothing to want, nothing to strive for, no goal, nothing to accomplish, nothing to live for, that is the problem. the solution is not death, i know that much. so don't worry about that, i just have no motivation behind waking up in the morning
its just like life lost its flavor.
goal, and it's nothing bad..i just want to know whether you are strong enough for this, remember death is not the only way cowards take. you say you have no goal, find one then. seek one, whatever you want in this world, make that your goal...if you don't want anything, there must be someone you love sp much, make what that person wants your goal. Can't you do that? find a goal? Do you dare?