So last I posted I said my H was "spying" on HH. I have been reading since then but haven't posted. Today I decide to respond to someones post and find my password doesn't work. I figured it was because I changed it when I found out H knew it. But when I do password recovery I find my password and screen name are both changed. The scree name is nothing I have ever thought of using and the password is one of the ones my H uses.

Now I have changed things again and changed the e-mail address I use for this. I know all this is stupid.

I haven't had a chance to talk to H (He is at work now) but I can gaurentee he will just deny it or try to turn it on me. "Oh, I thought you didn't post anymore." Which isn't what I told him. I told him I hardly post anymore, especially about us. Most of my posts now are responses to others posts.

This is just another blow to me. I am trying to move on now. I have told him I realized I had been holding back on forgiveness and I would work on it. I felt that after 2+ years I was begining to really recover. Now he is pulling this.

Maybe it is a good sign. Maybe it shows its on his mind. I mean if he didn't any of this before he was careful to hide it from me. Now he is making obvious. I just hope he is doing some internal reflecting and not just blaming me for hanging onto it.

Trinity

(((((((((((Trinity))))))))))

I just read the post from your H, and I responded. Ami, BlueIris, and Jane's responses were brilliant of course. And I am sorry you are hurting from all of this. I do feel that it is a good thing that he posted and that it is on his mind. I am hoping that this is a baby step in the right direction for the marriage, and for each of you personally. Maybe this will be an opportunity for more communication and healing. Think positive



~ CAL
"You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection" ~ Buddha

I also responded Trinity, and I hope your H takes that (albiet angry) first post and makes it the first of many. He sounds very angry, and most of the time anger is a mask for hurt when the hurt is too much to handle at the time. Looking in the mirror has got to be one of the hardest things a WS ever does, if they look honestly.

Hugs,
Sun