Hart, I am glad we had a chance to chat tonite.
You are doing ok it will get better, we all know how you are feeling and understand all so well the pain and despair you feel right now, I have been there and at times still go there as I am just shy of my last d-day coming up to the one year mark.
Keep posting and chatting as much as you want and can here it is a great place to let it all hang out buddy.
Take care and keep your chin up, if you want to email me anytime.