It was good to chat with you this afternoon.
I hope that we didn't overwhelm you at all with all of us chatting with you. I hope you know that we were all simply trying to delve into the issues and help. You sounds like a person who really wants to be better, but is not sure she's ready or able to do it. I think you are. I think if you see the 'real you' as Sun pointed out, you may be shocked enough to realize you need to change.
Please feel free to post, flag for chat, whatever you need.
Take care!
Denise
"Our lives begin to end when we become silent about things"