I went home for a month on holidays and after a week I felt fantastic and back to my old self!! My hearing is back (not 100% but I can live with 60%). The only side affect still left is a partially numb tongue. My face has mostly healed but the muscles still need to develop further. I can actually smile and look like myself
I was so relaxed coming back home. Until I reached Ottawa and I could actually feel my body tense up from the traffic.
Anyway just wanted to let you peeps know that "the Kid" is back!!
Thanks everyone for your support. It means so much to me and you all mean so much to me we should be sitting together for Sunday dinner. You're part of my family.
yay, glad to have Kim back--whether the old Kim or the new Kim, just as long as she is the HEALTHY Kim. :0) glad that your issues are clearing up and hope that you continue to heal.
It is so great to hear things are better. You have always been a friend when I needed support or a hit with the 2x4 so I felt so helpless not being able to give more then cyber support.
Thanks so much Rett. You've always been a good friend to me also, even after kicking you in the ass. I think you've also returned the favor on occasion.
That's the part about MS that is hard. It is unpredictable and there really is nothing you can do once you are having a relapse. We are conditioned to take medicine and fix a problem, or have surgery and fix a problem. Having to just deal with it, or live with it isn't what we are accustom to doing. It is a hard realization for me. I feel like I missed a good chunk of my life and it was only 2 months. That is two months I won't ever get back. I need to find a way to reconcile that in my mind and know that when I get sick I will eventuallly feel like myself again in a matter of time.
Perhaps I need to go to yoga and find patience and stress relief lol
Kim said
" I need to find a way to reconcile that in my mind and know that when I get sick I will eventuallly feel like myself again in a matter of time. "
I remember that first year so well. It was all about survival. Learning that I could put one step in front of another. Learning that I would not die from hysterical crying, lack of sleep, flashback images of a horror movie, and unbelievable agony.
I needed to talk to people here that have been there and survived. I needed to read the healing books. I needed to
learn...
Kim my darling friend sometimes family just isn't what we expect them, need them to be, or what TV taught us they should be. However, once a while in a life time we meet friends who feel just like we thought family should be. THAT my friend is healing.
Your good news is our good news. And more important you have always been my role model. You walked into a live movie that I have only seen in my nightmares. AND you pulled up the carpet, made lots of repairs, sold, moved, gained a new title CPA to us, I forget what you called it, but basically came out on top of all of this. Kim, NOTHING gets you down. All you need is time to learn how...
and as Rett so eloquently said "I felt so helpless not being able to give more then cyber support. "
We love you KIM!! So glad to hear you are getting stronger, and as always are THE come back KID!!!
Eloquent as always. I love you guys too El.
I started my first injection on Friday with a nurse and have since done 2 at home myself. So far so good - mild side effects but nothing that I can't live through.
I think that no matter where we are and what we are doing, it is the uncertainty of not knowing that causes us much grief and stress, even after dday. There are so many questions, but once you start to get the answers you can wrap your head around it a bit more.
The Comeback Kid.......hmmm I might have to change my name again haha!
Thanks Deb. While dday was many years ago for me it hasn't been an easy battle. Dday, herpes, divorce, dad diagnosed with cancer and doing chemo, me diagnosed with MS, dad going through chemo again, dad dying, changing jobs, moving cities and finally MS relapse.
Our bodies are unfortunately creatures of our environment and something has to give. I've been under such prolonged periods of stress for the past 7 years since dday that my doctor fully attributes the MS to those periods.
It is sooo important to take care of our bodies, even when we don't feel like getting up and moving, or when we just want to lay in bed and cry all day. I know how painful an affair can be, but I really encourage others to try to take care of themselves. Make sure you eat healthy foods (even if you don't feel like it). I know the tub of haagendaz is tempting and comforting. Try to get exercise. It helps work out some of the stress and keeps our blood pressure lower. It helps to relieve a bit of the depression too. Do things fun and relaxing even if at the time they don't feel fun.
It is hard to remember to take care of us when these horrific things in life happen.
