Oh Caz, I am so sorry you are dealing with this. Please don't beat yourself up... (God men
by Faith (no login)
You ARE NOT a terrible person. You and DH made the decision based on just what you could handle right now at this point in your life. The fact that there is another couple who feels more capable of handling whatever comes of Littles issues just means that they are at a different point. I know right now that you can't possible feel anything but confusion, but at some point I hope this gives you some peace. This child that you will always care for will have the family he was meant to have. And God will give you the family you were meant to have. Perhaps that was why there was another family in the wings for Littles. And perhaps that is what helped you and DH make the decision to move on.
By protecting your young marriage you are also preparing to be the best parents you can be. I know how much strain IF has placed on our young marriage and I wish I could figure out how to best protect it. It isn't easy...
I know that there is a baby out there who is just perfect for you. I wish Littles had been the one. I know I am rambling, but I just want to give you some support. I wish you peace in the days to come. I know you will continue to second guess yourself ( I would be driving myself crazy!) But go with your gut. Hugs to you and DH.