I have been MIA for awhile, but I just wanted to echo what all the other posters said to you below: you and DH are very courageous to have seen Littles through his rough entry into this world, and even more courageous for doing what was best for you. I hope you have found some peace with your decision and are enjoying some R and R with DH now.
Best wishes and I hope to see you on the boards in the future!