I've been thinking of you a lot the past few weeks and wondering how things were going. I'm so happy you both feel good about your decision and are continuing to move forward w/adopting. I think that baby was so incredibly lucky to have you there to welcome him into the world. Maybe that's what you were "meant" to do, if fate plays a role in all this. I'm sure you'll be fantastic parents someday soon--you've shown yourself to be kind, compassionate, and thoughtful in making big decisions. What a great mom you will be!
QM and I were just chatting about how awesome you are and how much you've been in our thoughts lately. Good luck with everything!