You have no idea how much you all have helped me. During the days when I was crying every day and my DH didn't understand (why are you crying, I thought we agreed that this was the right thing to do) - well, you all understood my pain and I am just so thankful that I could come here and unload. I'm still sad, he's still in NICU ... literally steps away from my office in the hospital ... but I know we did the right thing. It's still hard, and I still don't understand why it had to happen that way. But, we all grow from these things and I know that our baby is one step closer.