Birthmom and her mom are coming out for 5 days around the first weekend in June. I am nervous about everything: all our house projects are not done (we are slowly fixing up an older home), my work project won't be done, and nursery isn't finished, etc. I am a control freak and want everything to be perfect!! I know, I know, I have to let all that go ESPECIALLY as DH and I are about to become parents!! Actually, I can't wait for the chaos, sleep deprivation and constant worry of parenthood to begin! But mostly I am just nervous about finally meeting BM and her mom face to face and doing all the intense therapy sessions. Such a strange way to start out a relationship! BM, her mom, DH and I have talked about this and have all agreed that while this journey is so intense and strange, keeping lines of communication open is critical and all we can do is be ourselves and speak up when something doesn't feel right. I REALLY like them both so much that despite the nerves (and occasionally entertaining worst case scenarios) I am finally letting myself get excited about moving forward on this path and especially doing it with them. Well, those are my feelings today. Let's see what tomorrow brings with this roller coaster ride!