I never wanted to be pregnant or go through childbirth, but I did want that biological link and see how a child with my genes and DH's genes would turn out. Also, we voluntarily gave up on IF after several tries even though we were told we had an exceptionally good chance at success if we kept at it. I just didn't like the emotional, financial, or physical toll it was taking. So we CHOSE to move on (and always wanted to adopt in addition to having a bio child) yet I still have feelings of jealousy when I hear about someone being pregnant--especially when it was an OOPS. I have a mixture of feelings, really, but jealousy is certainly one. If you're nuts than so am I, and I have more reason to be because I sort of chose this. I think the fact that you realize you have these feelings is healthy, really.