Re: New to this borad with questions/sorry its long!!!!
by Jflyers (no login)
Yes he definitely wants to adopt, but I feel its just to get this nightmare finally over and start living our lives instead of keep doing invetro. I dont know if thats a good enough reason. I love children no matter what. My girlfriends little girl was in my wedding I am very ver close with her . THey know if a anything God forbid happended to them I would take her in a heart beat and raise her as my own. I love her that much. Thats why there is no doubt in my mine that I could raise any child. My feat is that its not being my Dh 's biological child. FOr some reason My Dh puts his ex on a pedstal because she is the mother of his children. Right now that hurts me even more thatn if I was normal and could bear his children. Infertility is a nightmare enough, but I have to battle the bond everyday that they share and if we adopt I still wont be shraing that bond with him and so that will always make he better then me: and when you love someone as much as we all love our dhs the hurt sometimes is unbearable. It eats me up inside. I am sorry again its so long. Its a double nightmare for me. Infertility and dealing with a Dh who thinks so much of someone elsa who is the mother of his chldren. Its a double whammy. When you talk to other men about their ex-wives; they dont have the same feelings. They love their children to do death; but they dont feel anything for thier ex-wife.