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Thanks so much for the hugs and the kind words. It means more than I can tell you. It's Sunday now, and I got up not long ago after crying in my sleep again. Seem to do that a lot. But I'm doing better, and that's thanks in a huge way to some of the best friends anyone could be privileged to have.

The funeral was very hard, but I was surrounded by a lot of my friends and they took care of me - again, in more ways than I can tell you. {{{{{{{{{{Fayee}}}}}}}} was at the funeral, and you know how grateful I am, hon. Everyone was very, very kind at the funeral, from the driver of "the car" - I'd been dreading that, and then the driver turned out to be a real angel in disguise, to the funeral director, to the minister, even when the eulogy I'd written for dad got lost in cyberspace and he didn't get it, to all dad's mates, to so many work mates who went, and most especially to all my friends, and particularly Agnes who came in the car with me to make sure I'd be ok. Afterwards we (my friends and me) went to a nice, quiet little place for something to eat (I have this urge to just eat and eat and eat to try and fill the empty spot inside, y'see), and then Fayee and Klio stayed overnight with me. We went into the city yesterday, which is a normal Saturday thing for us all every few weeks, so it was a good thing to get out of the flat. I wish the bone tiredness would go away though.

So, life goes on I suppose. I'm just very glad my dad doesn't have to be lonely anymore and that he's with June at last.

Love you guys,
Vicki/Kendaa

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Kendaa}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}


Peace, Love and God bless,
Deina

{{Kendaa}}

what more can we say. I am grateful that Fayee and Klio were there for you...and all those who are with you.

I just can't stop thinking about you. I'm glad the funeral went well. Please take care of yourself.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Kendaa}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I just don't know what to say...

Shhh,
Whisper

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Lil}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I totally didn't mean to omit you from the list above. Just blame it on a brain that's not really functioning much at present.

And thank you again guys - I really want you to know how much I think of you. My dad and I, like June and I, always ended visits and phone calls with us both saying "I love you", and given the suddenness of dad's passing away, I can't tell you how glad I am we did that. So tell everyone you love that every time you get off the phone with them, or end a visit with them or they with you, because you just don't know if that might be the last time you see or hear them.

LOVE YOU GUYS,
V/K

Would you mind terribly if I said it? You know I mean it.
I love you.

Zoni/Tonya

Darlin' don't you EVEN worry about stuff like that. Your friends are here for ya.

Loves ya!

Lil

I know we'll all drive you nuts in the coming weeks, keeping an eye on you but .... tough!!! I'm so glad some of your many friends could be with you and I know you're well aware how many couldn't be there but were thinking of you and sending their love:):):)

love and hugs
fayee

Cry when you need to, call when you need to, write when you need to.

Just make sure you take care of yourself. And I know the {{Aussie Amazons}}} will rally 'round and help ... I just wish I was closer...

Here's a 'cyber Cherry Coke for you...

'shana

{{{{{Kendaa}}}}}}
anytime my freind.
Crying is good healing

Zantog

I understand your greif. I guess that's why I don't think there are any words for it.
{{{{{{Kendaa}}}}}}}
E!

all my thoughts and prayers are with ya.

KevFriend

Mermaid

I got this today from a friend. It reminded me of this of course.


I Wish You Enough!!!!
>
>
>Recently I overheard a father and daughter in their
>last moments together. They had announced her plane
>departure and standing near the security gate,
>they hugged and he said, "I love you. I wish you enough."
>She in turn said, "Daddy, our life together has been
>more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed.
>I wish you enough, too, Daddy."
>
>They kissed and she left. He walked over toward
>the window where I was seated. Standing there I
>could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not
>to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by
>asking, "Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing
>it would be forever?"
>
>"Yes, I have," I replied. Saying that brought back
>memories I had of expressing my love and appreciation
>for all my Dad had done for me. Recognizing that his
>days were limited, I took the time to tell him face to
>face how much he meant to me. So I knew what this man
>was experiencing.
>
>"Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever
>good-bye?" I asked.
>
>"I am old and she lives much too far away. I have
>challenges ahead and the reality is, the next trip
>back would be for my funeral," he said.
>
>"When you were saying good-bye I heard you say, 'I wish
>you enough.' May I ask what that means?"
>
>He began to smile. "That's a wish that has been
>handed down from other generations. My parents
>used to say it to everyone." He paused for a moment
>and looking up as if trying to remember it in detail,
>he smiled even more.
>
>"When we said 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting
>the other person to have a life filled with just
>enough good things to sustain them," he continued and
>then turning toward me he shared the following as if
>he were reciting it from memory.
>
>"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
>I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
>I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit
>alive. I wish you enough pain so that the smallest
>joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough
>gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough
>loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish you
>enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Good-bye."
>
>He then began to sob and walked away.
>
>My dear family and friends, I wish YOU enough! May God
>bless you and yours.

that was me!
E!

{{{{{{{{{{Kendaa}}}}}}}}}}

Kendaa!
I was wondering how things were going with you.
Glad to hear that you're at least treading water.
Hang in there - I'll save a few good thoughts for you.
Take care!

Thank you all. I've felt lifted up by love ever since it happened. Love from my RL friends, and love from my cyber friends. And dad and June's love feels so strong to me right now.

Love and hugs,
Kendaa

I can't help but say it...I love you, too!

I'm sorry I didn't type in a response to this before,
but I have been keeping up with it!
I read on your website how much your dad means to you, and *yes*, I use the present tense here, and I know what you are feeling must be a terrible sense of loss.

Just know that you, along with all the other Forumites, have been in my prayers since the day I joined Studios USA, July 24th, 1999. That's not gonna change! You are in my prayers more now than ever, though. Kendaa, there are not nearly enough words to express the depth and breadth of my friendship for you, especially not at this sad time. You were one of my first friends, even back on the SciFi BBoard Temple of Ares 12...Or, was it the Fortress? Irrelivant much, I'm sorry...And if not one of my first friends, I dare say my very first! Your "presence," even online, made you seem like you'd be a very good friend to know! Your warmth has touched so many lives, even across the world! Your friendship has meant the world to so many, I speak for all of us when I say that we're just glad that we could give some of it back!

I type this through misty eyes, and I'm about to forget what I was going to say...

You have been so strong for others, Kendaa, I know personally that *I'm* just glad I could, in even the smallest way, be just as strong for you! And I know for a fact that the rest of us feel the same way! (*Right*, girls?) I am...Nay, we are so glad we are those from whom you choose to draw your strength right now. We are glad we can offer at this time, sometimes, the only thing one can:*friendship*!
I'm glad I'm here to be a shoulder for you to cry on if you need...Well, a CyberShoulder...Be careful you don't short your keyboard with your tears!LOL! 'Cuz then how would you talk to us?:)

Be buoyed up by our strength, Kendaa, and take comfort in our friendship in this your time of need. I'm glad we're here for you when you need us, 'cuz that's what makes a friend, right? We won't ditch you when you need us most! That's why we're here!:)

I, for one will be there for you always in spirit. (And I'll be there next December in body!:):):D:D (*BOUNCE*!)) Just know I'm here for you, Kendaa...
Even if you just want to talk/rant/cry/grieve/
*whatever*, I'll be there to listen, along with the rest!

I say, comepletely unabashedly that I love you! You, Kendaa, are truly one of my closest friends, Cyber or otherwise, and you'll always be in my heart and in my prayers. If you need *anything*, just be sure to tell me, and, even from the States, I'll try my hardest to do what I can to make it happen! Hey, I can accomodate! (Just ask Ares!LOL!:)<*WickedLittleSmirk*!>

You'll have a couple things coming in your e-mail also, so look out for them.

I'll be here to talk anytime you need, so look for me around! My e-mail's listed. Just click the blue name, and I'm only a message away!

(*Gods*, that was long! I probably wore you out! LOL! Break it up into smaller portions if you need to!LOL!)



Later,
~V~Aquila~V~
(Whose titles and Sig/s would go here, if she weren't too lazy to remember them!)

Forum Poet Laureate! ( Thank you, Kendaa!:))

Friendship

You’ve told us your problem, so now we know
Now every day, your grief seems to grow.
You’ve lost your Dad, who’s meant so much,
With his love, support, with hugs and such…
Some of us here know just how you feel,
We’ll help keep your soul on an even keel.
We all hope for your peace and we all send our love,
We wish for you blessings sent down from Above.
We’ll give from the heart, and we’ll do what we can
Know our love for you will always span
The globe, and just know that we’re here for you,
And all our friendships will always be true!

We love you, Kendaa!:):)

And we're all here if/when you need us!:)
We're only a click away!

That's just beautiful, hon. The tears are back, but they're grateful tears.

Thank you.

Love and warm hugs,
Kendaa